So 2010 is over and 2011 has begun. Most people who have a blog i'm sure wrote something about the new year a few days ago, I of course i'm a little late in getting to it. :o) But better late than never right?!
I am personally not a huge fan of new year's resolutions, I have never made one that i've been able to follow so I simply stopped making them. That's not to say that I don't have things I want to do and change each new year. But somehow as long as I don't put "resolution" in front of it, it becomes reachable. Don't try to understand it. There is no logic to it. Just go with it.
So what are my goals for this year? First of all, I want to get healthy. I have decided I am going to start cooking healthier foods for our family. This will involve veggies. I hate almost all vegetables. I like green beans, corn, salad and tomatoes. That's it, list ends there. But you can't eat healthy unless you add some veggies to the mix so I guess that's what i'm going to have to do. By the way, if anyone has any good recipes feel free to share! :o) I also joined a gym! I have never in my life been a member of a gym or done any kind of work out regularly. I've gone walking with my friend before but that usually only lasts a few weeks before we get tired of it. But I am now an official member of a gym! My friend Chelsea and I went yesterday for the first time and are going again today. My plan is to go at least 3 times a week in the mornings before Konner goes to school. I have a goal weight that I want to be and i'm determined to not quit this time until I hit it. Surly with eating better and working out I can do it right?! Right! :o)
Second of all, I want to improve as a wife and mom. This is something I work on every single day (well, most every day!) but I want to work even harder at it. I think i'm going to try to set challenges for myself for each month. What these challenges will be, i'm not sure yet. But it's always good to challenge yourself and push yourself to grow and improve. So as I figure out what the challenges will be i'll come back and share.
Third of all, I want to defrump. Since i'm a stay at home mom it's so easy to simply throw on jeans and a tee shirt and call it good. But I want to get better about dressing nicer and fixing up more often. This morning I actually wore a dress to church for the first time in a long long time, actually can't remember the last time I wore a dress. A big part of it is I simply don't have dressy clothes so shopping will be involved in this challenge. Believe it or not that will be a challenge in itself. I love to shop but I always feel guilty buying myself things. However I'm going to get over it! I already started yesterday. Colby and I went out to get me some new tennis shoes for the gym and I ended up getting shoes, some work out clothes, a dress (that I wore this morning), a couple of tops and some pants. So i'm off to a pretty good start!
And lastly but most importantly, I want to grow spiritually. I'm looking for a good bible study to get into because I feel so thirsty for more of God. I want to go deeper this year than I ever have before. I want to look back a year from now and see such a different person. I want to love deeper, laugh harder and live more for Jesus than ever before.
So there you have it, those are my goals for the new year. Hopefully I can keep all of them and a year from now be a better, improved version of myself. Happy New Year everyone! :o)
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Friday, December 10, 2010
Out of focus
Am I the only one to ever get things out of focus? So often I can get caught up on the unimportant things and forget to focus on the things that really matter. There are tons of examples I could give but i'm going to focus on one specific one that has been on my mind lately, my daughter Lexi.
Lexi...gosh, how to even start? I've talked a lot on here about my kids and most of the time when talking about Lexi i'll say something about her being strong willed. I have been so overwhelmed and almost bewildered with her because of this and can easily get caught up in a battle with her. But I have to say the biggest most prominent battle with her has been potty training. Now any parent of a young child can attest to the fact that this is a huge thing in the raising of your child! Parents of other children around the same age as yours will ask questions about when your kids were trained and other things like that. Believe me when I say, it can be quite embarrassing talking to a parent of a 2 year old who is already trained and admitting that your 4 year old still is not!
I have been working with Lexi on this for the past 2 years. We have tried everything you can think of to get this girl trained! We've tried rewards, discipline for accidents, panties only, pull-ups...and the list goes on and on. I have fought and laughed and rejoiced when it finally works and cried when she's had 10 accidents in one morning. She's had really good days and really, really bad days and I have to admit that my mood and our relationship can change on those bad days. We actually went to her dr this week to talk to him about it. I just needed to find out if there's anything I could be trying that i'm not. But he said she's perfectly normal and she'll do it when she's good and ready.
So I finally stopped and thought about everything, and I figured something out. I have been completely out of focus when it comes to her! I have spent so much time focusing on what she isn't doing and have completely missed what she is and has been doing. In the past few months my Lexi's personality has started changing. Now don't get me wrong, she can still dig her heels in on something and it takes quite a battle to get her to change. But on a whole, her personality has gotten sweeter, she minds quicker (most of the time), she adores Logyn and plays with her so well, and so many other wonderful things. I have spent so much time focusing on something that isn't even a personality trait. My job as a mom is to teach and train and shape her as a person. Where does potty training fall under those 3 things? It doesn't. Plan and simple! Yes, I would love for her to be trained and it still is hard to swallow my pride in my skills as a mother in this area but in no way does it change anything about my daughter. I know that she will not enter her teen years still in pull-ups so it's all good! haha
So I have decided to get back in focus and look at all the wonderful things that make up my little girl. This doesn't mean that I won't grow frustrated when accidents happen, I am still human after all! But I will stop making such a HUGE deal out of all of this. She will learn when she learns. Until then, i'm going to learn how to completely enjoy my daughter and remember that my job is so much more than just potty training her. Now excuse me while I go give her a great big hug! :o)
Lexi...gosh, how to even start? I've talked a lot on here about my kids and most of the time when talking about Lexi i'll say something about her being strong willed. I have been so overwhelmed and almost bewildered with her because of this and can easily get caught up in a battle with her. But I have to say the biggest most prominent battle with her has been potty training. Now any parent of a young child can attest to the fact that this is a huge thing in the raising of your child! Parents of other children around the same age as yours will ask questions about when your kids were trained and other things like that. Believe me when I say, it can be quite embarrassing talking to a parent of a 2 year old who is already trained and admitting that your 4 year old still is not!
I have been working with Lexi on this for the past 2 years. We have tried everything you can think of to get this girl trained! We've tried rewards, discipline for accidents, panties only, pull-ups...and the list goes on and on. I have fought and laughed and rejoiced when it finally works and cried when she's had 10 accidents in one morning. She's had really good days and really, really bad days and I have to admit that my mood and our relationship can change on those bad days. We actually went to her dr this week to talk to him about it. I just needed to find out if there's anything I could be trying that i'm not. But he said she's perfectly normal and she'll do it when she's good and ready.
So I finally stopped and thought about everything, and I figured something out. I have been completely out of focus when it comes to her! I have spent so much time focusing on what she isn't doing and have completely missed what she is and has been doing. In the past few months my Lexi's personality has started changing. Now don't get me wrong, she can still dig her heels in on something and it takes quite a battle to get her to change. But on a whole, her personality has gotten sweeter, she minds quicker (most of the time), she adores Logyn and plays with her so well, and so many other wonderful things. I have spent so much time focusing on something that isn't even a personality trait. My job as a mom is to teach and train and shape her as a person. Where does potty training fall under those 3 things? It doesn't. Plan and simple! Yes, I would love for her to be trained and it still is hard to swallow my pride in my skills as a mother in this area but in no way does it change anything about my daughter. I know that she will not enter her teen years still in pull-ups so it's all good! haha
So I have decided to get back in focus and look at all the wonderful things that make up my little girl. This doesn't mean that I won't grow frustrated when accidents happen, I am still human after all! But I will stop making such a HUGE deal out of all of this. She will learn when she learns. Until then, i'm going to learn how to completely enjoy my daughter and remember that my job is so much more than just potty training her. Now excuse me while I go give her a great big hug! :o)
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Holidays...and all that comes with it
Well it's almost Christmas and the little girl in me has been jumping up and down for weeks! I LOVE Christmas! There's just so much to love about it, the tree, the music, the yummy goodies you have an excuse to bake and yes, even the shopping is enjoyable (for the most part). Colby is not a fan of all the Christmas hoopla though so it does make for an interesting time. He absolutely hates Christmas music and can't stand the crowds in every store from the day after Thanksgiving until January. But he loves me lots and lots so he grits is teeth and bares through all of it. :o)
But as much as I love Christmas and Thanksgiving and all the holiday festivities there is always a touch of sadness to it. It's something I don't really talk about all that often but today it's pretty heavy on my mind so i'll allow myself to go there, only for a little while mind you and then it's back to all the joy of the season!
As a little girl Thanksgiving and Christmas were always pretty predictable. Our family, like most families, had traditions for both holidays. We always spent Thanksgiving at my Meme and Papa's house (my dad's parents in case you're wondering. :o) ) and had all the wonderful food that went with it. My Meme would make stuffing from a recipe that belongs to my great grandmother so you know it's good stuff and I would have my very own pan of it because I don't care for eggs. I would also have my own special pie every year. See I also don't like nuts but I loved pecan pie, I would just scrape the pecans off and eat all the yumminess under them. So my Meme started making me a pecan-less pecan pie! Sounds silly but it's oh so good! I was also teased mercilessly over beets each year. One year I thought they were cranberries and was sorely mistaken and my family never let me forget it! :o)
For Christmas, we always went to Hammon Oklahoma to see my great grandma. We would spend a few days there and it was always wonderful. My great grandma can cook better than anyone in this world and every one of her recipes consists of "a pinch of this" and "a dab of that" as most good recipes do. Her chocolate sheet cake is legendary in our family and she makes the best sausage gravy i've ever had! Every year she had tons of goodies made by the time we got there and most years they were all gone by the time we left. We always opened presents on Christmas Eve with all the Aunts, Uncles and cousins gathered around. After all the presents were opened we would do what every family does...wad up all the paper and have a wrapping paper fight of course! Doesn't your family do that? You should really try it sometime. It's simply awesome! My parents would always bring our stockings with us for Christmas morning so we'd have something to open when we first woke up since we weren't at home. Then most years we'd head home that afternoon and spend the evening doing our family Christmas together.
Both holidays have changed quite a bit since then. You see, my parents got divorced when I was 15 and since then both Thanksgiving and Christmas have never been the same. My last time I was in my great grandmothers house was the Christmas I was 13 because our family was quite a mess the next Christmas. I had no idea it would be the last Christmas i'd spend there. I wish I had known though, there's so much I would go back and do if i'd known. I would have walked all around her house more so I could remember every inch of it better. I would have stood in her kitchen longer watching her bake for her family and hanging on to all the wonderful laughter of all the family gathered around. I would say I would have eaten more of those yummy treats she made but i'm not sure I could have. :o) It's so hard to believe it's been 11 years since i've been to her house and had that "normal" Christmas.
And Thanksgiving changed quite a bit as well. I have actually not seen my dad on Thanksgiving since I was 14. My mother does still make me my own stuffing and pecan-less pecan pie every year so that part is the same. We do still have my great grandmother's stuffing every year and will probably always have that, just one of those recipe's that will be passed down. But to this day it's weird and very very hard not having my dad around on Thanksgiving. Hard to believe it's been 10 years since I spent that day with him. It's hard knowing he spends that day with another family and has made new traditions for both Thanksgiving and Christmas and sometimes that 14 year old girl that's still inside of me wishes I could go back to those days.
But just like my dad has built new traditions for these holidays, so have I. I guess that's just a part of life. You have to learn how to deal with the hard stuff and not let it ruin all the wonderful things. As hard as it is not spending Christmas at my great grandmothers house I still absolutely love Christmas. I love seeing my children's faces Christmas morning as they rush into the living room to start our morning.
I think that's why it's so important to remember why we celebrate these days. You see, Thanksgiving is not about the turkey and the stuffing. Although those are both wonderful and it would be very strange to have Thanksgiving without them, it's really about being thankful for everything we've been blessed with over the past year. It's about spending time with family laughing and building memories so that when things do change, you can still hold onto just a little bit of holidays past.
As for Christmas, we all know it's about celebrating Jesus' birthday. But it's so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of the day without stopping to focus on Him. So as much as I love the old traditions, and as much as I miss waking up at my great grandmother's house on Christmas morning, I can still celebrate the day and completely enjoy every minuet of it. The holidays aren't here just for our traditions and all the food that comes with the days, although there's nothing wrong with either of those things. They are here to celebrate Jesus, to remind us of everything He's done for us. We get so caught up in what gifts we're going to buy and what all we're getting and we forget that the very first Christmas wasn't about getting at all. Jesus gave up heaven and all it's glory to come to this earth for us and that's what this day is all about.
So this year I challenge you, and I challenge myself, to be extra mindful of why we celebrate Christmas. Find a new way to thank Jesus for what all He did and all He gave up. If that's a new tradition with your kids that's awesome. I heard of an idea of a Jesus stocking. For the whole month of December you write down everything you do for Jesus and put it in the stocking. Then as a family you read what everyone's done for Jesus that month before you start on each others gifts. So whatever you do, take some extra time and effort to put the focus back on Him. After all, Jesus is the reson for the season. It's such an old saying but something worth remembering. Merry Christmas everyone!
But as much as I love Christmas and Thanksgiving and all the holiday festivities there is always a touch of sadness to it. It's something I don't really talk about all that often but today it's pretty heavy on my mind so i'll allow myself to go there, only for a little while mind you and then it's back to all the joy of the season!
As a little girl Thanksgiving and Christmas were always pretty predictable. Our family, like most families, had traditions for both holidays. We always spent Thanksgiving at my Meme and Papa's house (my dad's parents in case you're wondering. :o) ) and had all the wonderful food that went with it. My Meme would make stuffing from a recipe that belongs to my great grandmother so you know it's good stuff and I would have my very own pan of it because I don't care for eggs. I would also have my own special pie every year. See I also don't like nuts but I loved pecan pie, I would just scrape the pecans off and eat all the yumminess under them. So my Meme started making me a pecan-less pecan pie! Sounds silly but it's oh so good! I was also teased mercilessly over beets each year. One year I thought they were cranberries and was sorely mistaken and my family never let me forget it! :o)
For Christmas, we always went to Hammon Oklahoma to see my great grandma. We would spend a few days there and it was always wonderful. My great grandma can cook better than anyone in this world and every one of her recipes consists of "a pinch of this" and "a dab of that" as most good recipes do. Her chocolate sheet cake is legendary in our family and she makes the best sausage gravy i've ever had! Every year she had tons of goodies made by the time we got there and most years they were all gone by the time we left. We always opened presents on Christmas Eve with all the Aunts, Uncles and cousins gathered around. After all the presents were opened we would do what every family does...wad up all the paper and have a wrapping paper fight of course! Doesn't your family do that? You should really try it sometime. It's simply awesome! My parents would always bring our stockings with us for Christmas morning so we'd have something to open when we first woke up since we weren't at home. Then most years we'd head home that afternoon and spend the evening doing our family Christmas together.
Both holidays have changed quite a bit since then. You see, my parents got divorced when I was 15 and since then both Thanksgiving and Christmas have never been the same. My last time I was in my great grandmothers house was the Christmas I was 13 because our family was quite a mess the next Christmas. I had no idea it would be the last Christmas i'd spend there. I wish I had known though, there's so much I would go back and do if i'd known. I would have walked all around her house more so I could remember every inch of it better. I would have stood in her kitchen longer watching her bake for her family and hanging on to all the wonderful laughter of all the family gathered around. I would say I would have eaten more of those yummy treats she made but i'm not sure I could have. :o) It's so hard to believe it's been 11 years since i've been to her house and had that "normal" Christmas.
And Thanksgiving changed quite a bit as well. I have actually not seen my dad on Thanksgiving since I was 14. My mother does still make me my own stuffing and pecan-less pecan pie every year so that part is the same. We do still have my great grandmother's stuffing every year and will probably always have that, just one of those recipe's that will be passed down. But to this day it's weird and very very hard not having my dad around on Thanksgiving. Hard to believe it's been 10 years since I spent that day with him. It's hard knowing he spends that day with another family and has made new traditions for both Thanksgiving and Christmas and sometimes that 14 year old girl that's still inside of me wishes I could go back to those days.
But just like my dad has built new traditions for these holidays, so have I. I guess that's just a part of life. You have to learn how to deal with the hard stuff and not let it ruin all the wonderful things. As hard as it is not spending Christmas at my great grandmothers house I still absolutely love Christmas. I love seeing my children's faces Christmas morning as they rush into the living room to start our morning.
I think that's why it's so important to remember why we celebrate these days. You see, Thanksgiving is not about the turkey and the stuffing. Although those are both wonderful and it would be very strange to have Thanksgiving without them, it's really about being thankful for everything we've been blessed with over the past year. It's about spending time with family laughing and building memories so that when things do change, you can still hold onto just a little bit of holidays past.
As for Christmas, we all know it's about celebrating Jesus' birthday. But it's so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of the day without stopping to focus on Him. So as much as I love the old traditions, and as much as I miss waking up at my great grandmother's house on Christmas morning, I can still celebrate the day and completely enjoy every minuet of it. The holidays aren't here just for our traditions and all the food that comes with the days, although there's nothing wrong with either of those things. They are here to celebrate Jesus, to remind us of everything He's done for us. We get so caught up in what gifts we're going to buy and what all we're getting and we forget that the very first Christmas wasn't about getting at all. Jesus gave up heaven and all it's glory to come to this earth for us and that's what this day is all about.
So this year I challenge you, and I challenge myself, to be extra mindful of why we celebrate Christmas. Find a new way to thank Jesus for what all He did and all He gave up. If that's a new tradition with your kids that's awesome. I heard of an idea of a Jesus stocking. For the whole month of December you write down everything you do for Jesus and put it in the stocking. Then as a family you read what everyone's done for Jesus that month before you start on each others gifts. So whatever you do, take some extra time and effort to put the focus back on Him. After all, Jesus is the reson for the season. It's such an old saying but something worth remembering. Merry Christmas everyone!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Lexi's birthday
I posted Saturday that it was Lexi's birthday and talked all about my little girl turning 4. Well we had her party that afternoon, nothing fancy, just family but it was fun and she loved being in the spot light! Miss Pris just pranced around the whole time and ate up all the attention everyone gave her! :o)
I did make her cake again this year and it was quite a lot of work! I think it was actually more work than her cake last year! But I spent most of the week doing things for it when I could so that made it so much easier. She decided she wanted a Tinkerbell birthday so if course I made a Tinkerbell cake, although I just bought the toys to go on the cake. No way on earth was I going to try sculpting them!! haha! So anyways, I just had to post a few pics of the party. :o)
Here's the cake...
The birthday girl, not real sure why she looks like she's praying here! haha
And just a cute one of Logyn. :o)
Anyways, just had to post a few pics from the day. Now it's time to get ready for Logyn's birthday! :o)
I did make her cake again this year and it was quite a lot of work! I think it was actually more work than her cake last year! But I spent most of the week doing things for it when I could so that made it so much easier. She decided she wanted a Tinkerbell birthday so if course I made a Tinkerbell cake, although I just bought the toys to go on the cake. No way on earth was I going to try sculpting them!! haha! So anyways, I just had to post a few pics of the party. :o)
Here's the cake...
The birthday girl, not real sure why she looks like she's praying here! haha
And just a cute one of Logyn. :o)
Anyways, just had to post a few pics from the day. Now it's time to get ready for Logyn's birthday! :o)
Saturday, November 6, 2010
4 years ago
4 years ago today my beautiful Lexi was born. From the beginning I should have known she was all drama! I went to the hospital for 4 different false alarms. Everyone of those times I could have sworn was "it" and a couple of them almost were, until she changed her mind and decided she was good to stay put a little while longer! But when she was finally born, my life changed. I thought she'd be a lot like her brother...I couldn't have been more wrong! I thought she'd be a little like me...I was right. I thought since she was a girl i'd know more of what I was doing and parent her better...I was wrong! I thought she'd be her daddy's little girl...I was very, very right!
Colby and I had the hardest time agreeing on a name for her before she was born. Early on I suggested Alexis and he didn't like it, he then suggested Ferrari and I said "NO"!!! :o) Then I fell in love with the name Harmony, it just seemed so perfect to me but Colby wasn't having it. He had finally decided he liked Alexis, so we agreed on Alexis Harmony. Then of course he thought she should be called Ali, and I thought she should be called Lexi. Seriously, all the arguing and back and forth, should have given me a hint at what life with this child would be like! :o) We never did agree on if she would be Ali or Lexi, she was born and she was just, Lexi! Harmony would have been absolutely the wrong name for her, i'm hoping since it is her middle name she will learn it at some point during her life! She is every bit, Lexi.
I have talked before about how she is my little drama queen, she's strong willed and she can be very difficult when she wants and while all of those are true, they don't completely make her up. The main things that describe her are simply, daughter and sister. She is only 4 after all, there's not much more in her life than being a daughter and sister! :o) But wow, she carries both of those roles so well. On my side bar I describe her as "Best friend to Konner and keeper of Daddy's heart". That describes my Lexi! As much as her and Konner can drive each other crazy, they really are the best of friends. As for her daddy, I don't think anything in this world melts his heart like that little girl! She truly is blessed to be able to call him "daddy".
So today, we get to celebrate the day she came into our lives and filled a hole we didn't even know was there. I love you my sweet Lexi! I hope you never doubt that and always know how much you mean to me. You fill my heart, you drive me crazy, you make me laugh, you are simply you. Don't ever change that! Happy Birthday my Lexi girl!
Colby and I had the hardest time agreeing on a name for her before she was born. Early on I suggested Alexis and he didn't like it, he then suggested Ferrari and I said "NO"!!! :o) Then I fell in love with the name Harmony, it just seemed so perfect to me but Colby wasn't having it. He had finally decided he liked Alexis, so we agreed on Alexis Harmony. Then of course he thought she should be called Ali, and I thought she should be called Lexi. Seriously, all the arguing and back and forth, should have given me a hint at what life with this child would be like! :o) We never did agree on if she would be Ali or Lexi, she was born and she was just, Lexi! Harmony would have been absolutely the wrong name for her, i'm hoping since it is her middle name she will learn it at some point during her life! She is every bit, Lexi.
I have talked before about how she is my little drama queen, she's strong willed and she can be very difficult when she wants and while all of those are true, they don't completely make her up. The main things that describe her are simply, daughter and sister. She is only 4 after all, there's not much more in her life than being a daughter and sister! :o) But wow, she carries both of those roles so well. On my side bar I describe her as "Best friend to Konner and keeper of Daddy's heart". That describes my Lexi! As much as her and Konner can drive each other crazy, they really are the best of friends. As for her daddy, I don't think anything in this world melts his heart like that little girl! She truly is blessed to be able to call him "daddy".
So today, we get to celebrate the day she came into our lives and filled a hole we didn't even know was there. I love you my sweet Lexi! I hope you never doubt that and always know how much you mean to me. You fill my heart, you drive me crazy, you make me laugh, you are simply you. Don't ever change that! Happy Birthday my Lexi girl!
Monday, November 1, 2010
Today
Today is Monday. Normally I hate Mondays. The weekend is over and it's time to get back to the normal routine. Time to clean up the house after having taken some time off over the weekend. All in all, I just don't like Mondays. But, today has not been just any Monday. Today was a special Monday! Today I got to go eat lunch with Konner at school! His school is awesome about allowing parents and grandparents to come up for lunch or just during the day at any time to visit. So far I hadn't had the opportunity to go yet, it's kinda hard finding something to do with the girls while i'm gone for about an hour. But my mom offered to come watch the girls for me today so I could go up there with him.
I stopped and got him lunch which was really special because he normally eats the school lunches. But of course that made me run a few minuets late. *eye roll at myself for not leaving with more time!* I got there about 2 minuets late and the poor guy was already worried I wasn't coming! It broke my heart! I very rarely am not able to follow through on something I tell the kids i'm doing so i'm not sure why he thought I wouldn't be there. But the relief on his face when I walked in just about made me cry! *Yes, I am a very emotional person! :o)* So we sat down with several of his friends and had a great time eating and talking about his day. Of course the kids quickly moved on to talking about God vs. Incredible Hulk since they all said they had learned absolutely nothing all day! :o)
Then we went outside for recess and he showed me all around. We did the hula-hoops, basket ball, races and then just all the other little stuff they have. There were a bunch of kids out there and he was obviously friends with a lot of them. They all came up and asked who I was and talked to us and followed us around. It was so cute!
While I was watching him run around the play yard, race with his friends, and do all the other things he did, all I could think was "Take a mental picture!" I know it sounds silly to make such a big deal out of watching my son at recess but to me, it was huge. I know that the days of him being my five year old little boy are almost gone. The days of him turning to smile at me and make sure I see every basket he makes, they won't last forever. There will come a day when one of his friends asks who I am and he doesn't answer with such pride! haha I'm sure 10 years from now, my coming up to eat lunch with him won't be something he looks forward to for days. I want to do everything I can to hold on to these times. I want to remember every smile, every look, every single "That's my mommy!" because once again i'm reminded that these times go by all too soon.
There's an old saying, "A daughter's a daughter for life. A son is a son until he takes a wife." I remember looking at Konner just moments after he was born and I was reminded of that saying. One of my first thoughts was "18 years. I only have you all to myself for 18 years." That 18 has now moved to 13. All too soon it will be 12, and before I know it those 18 years will be gone.
So while my making a big deal out of something like going up to eat lunch with him might seem silly to some, to me, i'm simply making the most out of every single opportunity. Because I know that very very soon, these opportunities will be gone. But for now, my little boy still loves to be my little boy. So i'll take advantage of every single moment that I can and store up as many mental pictures as possible!
I stopped and got him lunch which was really special because he normally eats the school lunches. But of course that made me run a few minuets late. *eye roll at myself for not leaving with more time!* I got there about 2 minuets late and the poor guy was already worried I wasn't coming! It broke my heart! I very rarely am not able to follow through on something I tell the kids i'm doing so i'm not sure why he thought I wouldn't be there. But the relief on his face when I walked in just about made me cry! *Yes, I am a very emotional person! :o)* So we sat down with several of his friends and had a great time eating and talking about his day. Of course the kids quickly moved on to talking about God vs. Incredible Hulk since they all said they had learned absolutely nothing all day! :o)
Then we went outside for recess and he showed me all around. We did the hula-hoops, basket ball, races and then just all the other little stuff they have. There were a bunch of kids out there and he was obviously friends with a lot of them. They all came up and asked who I was and talked to us and followed us around. It was so cute!
While I was watching him run around the play yard, race with his friends, and do all the other things he did, all I could think was "Take a mental picture!" I know it sounds silly to make such a big deal out of watching my son at recess but to me, it was huge. I know that the days of him being my five year old little boy are almost gone. The days of him turning to smile at me and make sure I see every basket he makes, they won't last forever. There will come a day when one of his friends asks who I am and he doesn't answer with such pride! haha I'm sure 10 years from now, my coming up to eat lunch with him won't be something he looks forward to for days. I want to do everything I can to hold on to these times. I want to remember every smile, every look, every single "That's my mommy!" because once again i'm reminded that these times go by all too soon.
There's an old saying, "A daughter's a daughter for life. A son is a son until he takes a wife." I remember looking at Konner just moments after he was born and I was reminded of that saying. One of my first thoughts was "18 years. I only have you all to myself for 18 years." That 18 has now moved to 13. All too soon it will be 12, and before I know it those 18 years will be gone.
So while my making a big deal out of something like going up to eat lunch with him might seem silly to some, to me, i'm simply making the most out of every single opportunity. Because I know that very very soon, these opportunities will be gone. But for now, my little boy still loves to be my little boy. So i'll take advantage of every single moment that I can and store up as many mental pictures as possible!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
What to talk about
I have sat down so many times to try and post, but every single time my mind has been running in a thousand directions. So far I haven't been able to actually focus on a single topic so I just haven't posted. I've gone from wanting to talk about just every day stuff, to more serious specific topics. So for now I just decided to go with a general update and save the specific topics for another post.
Konner is now in his third month of school and he's doing amazing! The first month was very hard. He would go and have a great day, but at the end of the day when it was time to go home he would tell me every day how much he didn't like school and really didn't want to go back. I think it was very very hard for him to get used to being gone all day every day. But starting out I knew we needed to give it a full month before looking into it deeper and sure enough, that's exactly what it took. Almost 1 month to the day was all all it took! He now absolutely loves school and is always so excited to go, he has such a great time and is really enjoying learning everything. He is reading now too which is just such a proud thing for a parent to see! I talked to his teacher-who is absolutely amazing-a few weeks ago to see if he was behind at all. This school actually starts in all day Pre-K and he hadn't gone last year so I was worried that he would be behind most of the other kids. But she said he's not behind at all and learns things and picks up on things very quickly. I had to tell her that he gets all of that from his dad! :o) That's one thing I absolutely can not take any credit for! But that's just fine with me!
We are getting ready for Lexi's 4th birthday in just over a week. I can't believe she's already going to be four! Every birthday just seems so weird to me. I don't exactly remember allowing my children to grow up! I know that they're not exactly grown yet but everyday they just get closer and closer, doesn't get any easier to watch either! Lexi is doing great though, her and Logyn are getting super close now that they're getting so much time together while Konner is in school. We are still, yes STILL, working on potty training that girl! Such a weird and hard thing to admit as a mother! We have been working hard on this for over a year and are starting to get closer to it. She is finally out of pull-ups on a regular basis, now mostly just for naps and bedtime but accidents are still a fairly common thing. I know, a lot of people say to never even use pull-ups and maybe that's something we should have done to begin with. But I will say, after cleaning up so many accidents, those things were a life saver! Lexi is a very strong willed little girl and I honestly think that's why it is taking her so long to get trained. She has such a hard time doing anything that she doesn't want to do or doesn't care about doing and that's been the biggest problem. But I do think we are getting close and she is for the most part trained. I will however hold the fact that she wasn't trained till she was 4 over her head for the rest of her life! My payment for changing so many diapers and pull-ups!!! :o)
Logyn...what can I possible say about my Logyn that hasn't been said. She isn't even 2 after all so there couldn't possibly be much to say about her right? Not hardly! That little girl absolutely completes our family! She is the perfect mix of her brother and sister and yet somehow is absolutely her own person with her very own personality. Colby and I have talked quite a lot about before she was born. I had felt for quite sometime like someone was missing. It was so hard to explain because it wasn't like someone had been there and left so to a point it just didn't make any sense. Plus Colby didn't feel it at all! We had a little boy and a little girl, all we needed was a golden retriever and we'd be the perfect american family! But for over a year I absolutely knew someone was missing. I never thought Colby would ever change his mind about having another baby and I tried and prayed so hard to be ok with that. Colby did end up changing his mind and we have been so blessed every day since she was born-although Colby has admitted to having some doubts the first night home with her when she kept us up till 4am screaming! :o) She is just such an amazing kid and brings out the best in all of us...most of the time. Konner's not too fond of her when she's stealing his sun glasses, and Lexi isn't thrilled when Logyn eats her food when she's not looking! But other than those times, she's amazing!
All in all, I love my little family. There are times they drive me absolutely crazy, and they may be young but they can fight with the best of them! But I really can't picture not having the three of them running around here. It seems like life would be so dull and somewhat pointless without them. I am so thankful to be their mother and to have the wonderfully challenging job of raising them!
I guess i'll stop here, it's gone from an update to sappy so that's always a good time to stop! :o) Wonder what i'll talk about next time...
Konner is now in his third month of school and he's doing amazing! The first month was very hard. He would go and have a great day, but at the end of the day when it was time to go home he would tell me every day how much he didn't like school and really didn't want to go back. I think it was very very hard for him to get used to being gone all day every day. But starting out I knew we needed to give it a full month before looking into it deeper and sure enough, that's exactly what it took. Almost 1 month to the day was all all it took! He now absolutely loves school and is always so excited to go, he has such a great time and is really enjoying learning everything. He is reading now too which is just such a proud thing for a parent to see! I talked to his teacher-who is absolutely amazing-a few weeks ago to see if he was behind at all. This school actually starts in all day Pre-K and he hadn't gone last year so I was worried that he would be behind most of the other kids. But she said he's not behind at all and learns things and picks up on things very quickly. I had to tell her that he gets all of that from his dad! :o) That's one thing I absolutely can not take any credit for! But that's just fine with me!
We are getting ready for Lexi's 4th birthday in just over a week. I can't believe she's already going to be four! Every birthday just seems so weird to me. I don't exactly remember allowing my children to grow up! I know that they're not exactly grown yet but everyday they just get closer and closer, doesn't get any easier to watch either! Lexi is doing great though, her and Logyn are getting super close now that they're getting so much time together while Konner is in school. We are still, yes STILL, working on potty training that girl! Such a weird and hard thing to admit as a mother! We have been working hard on this for over a year and are starting to get closer to it. She is finally out of pull-ups on a regular basis, now mostly just for naps and bedtime but accidents are still a fairly common thing. I know, a lot of people say to never even use pull-ups and maybe that's something we should have done to begin with. But I will say, after cleaning up so many accidents, those things were a life saver! Lexi is a very strong willed little girl and I honestly think that's why it is taking her so long to get trained. She has such a hard time doing anything that she doesn't want to do or doesn't care about doing and that's been the biggest problem. But I do think we are getting close and she is for the most part trained. I will however hold the fact that she wasn't trained till she was 4 over her head for the rest of her life! My payment for changing so many diapers and pull-ups!!! :o)
Logyn...what can I possible say about my Logyn that hasn't been said. She isn't even 2 after all so there couldn't possibly be much to say about her right? Not hardly! That little girl absolutely completes our family! She is the perfect mix of her brother and sister and yet somehow is absolutely her own person with her very own personality. Colby and I have talked quite a lot about before she was born. I had felt for quite sometime like someone was missing. It was so hard to explain because it wasn't like someone had been there and left so to a point it just didn't make any sense. Plus Colby didn't feel it at all! We had a little boy and a little girl, all we needed was a golden retriever and we'd be the perfect american family! But for over a year I absolutely knew someone was missing. I never thought Colby would ever change his mind about having another baby and I tried and prayed so hard to be ok with that. Colby did end up changing his mind and we have been so blessed every day since she was born-although Colby has admitted to having some doubts the first night home with her when she kept us up till 4am screaming! :o) She is just such an amazing kid and brings out the best in all of us...most of the time. Konner's not too fond of her when she's stealing his sun glasses, and Lexi isn't thrilled when Logyn eats her food when she's not looking! But other than those times, she's amazing!
All in all, I love my little family. There are times they drive me absolutely crazy, and they may be young but they can fight with the best of them! But I really can't picture not having the three of them running around here. It seems like life would be so dull and somewhat pointless without them. I am so thankful to be their mother and to have the wonderfully challenging job of raising them!
I guess i'll stop here, it's gone from an update to sappy so that's always a good time to stop! :o) Wonder what i'll talk about next time...
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