Tomorrow is mine and Colby's six year anniversary. I wanted to sit down and write this beautiful, poetic, tear-jerker post but just couldn't figure out how to write exactly what I wanted to say. So I went back though some old pictures of the two of us and ended up smiling as I relived so many memories! I remember the day we got married so well, it wasn't your typical wedding day at all. It was just the two of us in a tiny little office at the courthouse, I don't even have a picture of me in the dress I wore! We didn't have all the normal wedding day stuff, the hours of make-up and hair styling. We didn't have all the tears as all the girls got ready and as my parents prepared for me to join another family. I never wore the big beautiful dress I bought, or carried the bouquet of flowers my mother and I spent hours working on. We didn't have a photographer there to capture every moment or get every configuration of family grouping you could imagine. To be honest, we didn't even have great odds that this thing called "marriage" would even last! But we did have something even better than all those things...we had love.
Neither of us knew what the next few years of life would look like, we had no idea of the highs we'd reach or the very, very lows we'd hit. We had no clue that by our fifth anniversary we'd have three young children running around our house calling out "mommy" and "daddy" all day long! We didn't know what it really took to be married. But even when we weren't quite sure if it was still there, we had love.
Looking back, I don't know if anyone actually thought we'd make it. I don't even think we always believed we would! I'm sure when we reached our first anniversary most of the people in our lives were a bit shocked! And again at our second anniversary! Hopefully by now the shock has worn off though! :o) And while a big part of what kept us together was pure, raw, untempered stubbornness, the bigger part was love.
See, through everything, all the up's and down's, the good the bad and the ugly, that's one thing we've not lost. I can honestly say, I still love that man, with everything in me, to the deep down core of my being I love him! I love him more now than I did when I married him. I lay down every night, snuggle up next to him and breath a sigh of thankfulness that i'm his wife. I'm so thankful that he is the father of my children, they may not fully understand until their older but they are truly blessed to be able to call him "Daddy".
I love you Colby. Thank you for giving me the privilege of being your wife! We've had some amazing times together and some truly heart breaking times, but through it all you've stood by me and loved me with a love I didn't know was possible. I look forward to many, many more years together watching our children grow and growing ourselves and I can't wait to see what the rest of life brings! Happy Anniversary!!