Friday, December 12, 2008

The baby...

On Wednesday this week Colby and I went to our garage and got out some of the kids old baby clothes, we sorted through a couple of boxes and got enough clothes out for the first 2 weeks. We of course had to get some boy and girl clothes as well as neutral clothes since we don't know if we're having a boy or girl. So yesterday I washed and dried all the clothes we picked out and this morning I got them all folded and put away. As I was folding them I could so clearly remember dressing Konner and Lexi in those clothes, I remember seeing them in each one of the outfits we pulled out.

I loved dressing Konner in his little blue outfits, but of course putting baby lotion on him first so he smelled sooo good. I was still so young when he was born and honestly had no clue what I was doing! haha! But he's turned out to be such a great kid! I remember looking at him and wondering what he would look like as a toddler and I honestly couldn't picture it at all! I couldn't get past his baby face and his chunky cheeks, I couldn't picture him talking and running. What's funny is now I have a hard time picturing his as that tiny baby because he such a little kid now, he runs and plays and talks and laughs and he's always making us laugh!

I remember when Lexi was first born, she was so tiny and so pink! I think Konner was probably just as pink but knowing she was a girl made her look more pink I think. She was smaller that Konner when she was born but even if she had been the same size or even bigger I think she still would've seemed so small. I think the first time I saw Konner and Lexi together was the first time I remember seeing Konner as big! haha! He was only 20 months old but suddenly he was huge to me, I saw all the responsibility he was going to have as her big brother. I saw all the fun they'd have playing together, and all the many fights that I was sure Colby and I would have to break up. :o)

I still look forward to watching the kids grow together and trying to picture them as older kids, which by the way I can hardly do! But now the picture is different because it won't just be the 2 of them, it'll always be Konner, Lexi and Logan and that's another picture that's hard for me to see. To a point i'm a little sad to see the days of just Konner and Lexi be gone, I love how close they are and how much fun they have playing together. So sometimes I wonder if once the new baby's here their relationship will change. Konner is thrilled to death about the baby and can't wait for him/her to get here but Lexi being so young could kinda care less! There have been a few times where she got excited when we were talking about the baby and looking at sono pics but for the most part she's not really sure what all's going on.

I really want Colby and I to be sure to watch out for her and make sure that she's adjusting to the whole thing ok. She's been our baby for 2 years now and she's such a daddy's girl that I worry for her and how she'll react to having to share daddy with the baby. A big part of me wants this baby to be a boy so that she'll still get to be the only girl but at the same time I don't want her to be a spoiled only girl. I guess at this point it's kinda been decided for a while now whether it's a boy or girl! haha! I'm sure she'll be great either way!

I've been praying a lot for myself also lately...I battled depression hard after I had Lexi and actually lived in depression for several months. I know living with Colby's parents played a huge part in that but either way i've been praying that will be something I don't deal with this time around. It was so hard to be a mom and I totally stopped caring about being a wife during that time. Looking back it was a really low point in my life which is kinda crazy when you think about it...I had just had a beautiful little girl but yet felt like I was at the lowest point in my life. So i've been praying against depression a lot this time around because that's not something I want to deal with again or something I want my family to deal with again.

All in all it looks like some pretty big changes are heading our way in the next few weeks...i'm super excited but sooo nervous at the same time! I guess we'll find a lot out in the next few weeks though!! :o)

Monday, December 8, 2008

It's almost Christmas!!!

I can't believe christmas is in 2 weeks!!!! That's just crazy to me and honestly it almost doesn't feel like christmas since we haven't had any snow yet, although i'm hopping that changes in the next 24 hours like the weather guys are saying. We put up our tree last week and that was so much fun! The kids had a total blast hanging all the decorations on it and we actually got a real tree this year so that was fun going and picking out our tree and tying it to the top of my car.

This last Saturday we had our women's christmas tea and that was fun as always. That's always been one of my favorite chirstmas things at our church...every year the ladies do an amazing job decorating the tables. I think i'm gonna try to host a table again next year, I did one last year but just wasn't up to it this year. But as always I left there with ideas for several different tables so I guess we'll see if I actually do one next year.

We're also having our Glo service at church in 2's our electric christmas service which is just AWESOME!!!! I think we'll be at all 4 services this year too, of course i'll be working one of them but other than that we're planning on going to all of them. Last year was the first year we had the Glo service and it was so cool but this year is going to be 10 times better because the sanctuary is finished and the media guys are awesome!! I'm super excited about it if you can't tell! :o)

The kids are getting excited about christmas too, at least Konner is, Lexi really doesn't know what all's going on she just knows it's fun. haha! Of course Konner keeps reminding us that baby Logan is coming after christmas so that's fun. Colby is actually going out of town the first of Jan so i'll be single mom-ing it for a few days which i'm a little worried about. But he's given me strict orders to sit on the couch and do absolutely nothing the whole time he's gone so that I don't go into labor early. :o) I really don't think that'll be an issue but I do plan on taking it easy just to be on the safe side.

I'm really excited that it's getting so close to my due date, I can't wait to find out if this little one is a boy or girl! I can't believe I was the one who wanted to wait and not find out!! haha! It's been fun to a point but I don't think i'd want to do it again that's for sure. I'm also getting more nervous the closer we get to the due date because i'm planning on going all natural-which I think i've mentioned before. But I do remember how much it hurt before I got the epidural so i'm just a bit nervous. Either way i'm really getting excited and can't wait to finally meet this little one.

I have one more doctor's apt next week and then I go to seeing him every week which just makes it even more real! But thankfully everything is looking good still, both of us seem to be doing great and i'm thrilled with my weight gain!!!! I've managed to keep it very minimal this time, i've only gained 7 lbs so far which is awesome since I lost 10 lbs the first trimester. That's so much different than what I gained with Konner but I did close to the same with Lexi so either way i'm thrilled. I won't have a ton of weight to lose after the baby's born...i'm still hoping to lose some but at least I won't have much extra baby weight to lose.

Anyways now i'm kinda rambling and I need to go get everything cleaned up-again-and ready for dinner...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

It's Thanksgiving!!!

Gosh I love this time of year and this year I have so much to be thankful for!One of the main things of course is our new baby...only 8 more weeks till I get to meet this little one. Gosh I can't wait! Then some other things are Colby's amazing job, my 2 wonderful kids, mine and Colby's marriage, our church family, our's and the kids health...the list could just go on and on. I've always loved Thanksgiving...when I was I think 13 my grama started making me my own stuffing-since i'm such a picky eater :o)-and my mom has continued the tradition even though i'm grown. It's a small thing but every year makes me feel super special...i'm spoiled I know!! haha!

This thanksgiving is going to be so much fun though because my Uncle John and his family is coming to town for a few days! He is the favorite person in my family so when he comes to town the world kinda stops and we all hang out and eat non-stop till he leaves! :o) He is the one the got us all playing poker a few years ago and so every time he comes to town we end up staying up till all hours of the night playing poker, but i'm hoping this year we'll be able to play Apples to Apples too! The kids are even excited about him coming, the whole family kinda hypes it up! haha!

Last night Lexi found one of my 3-D sono pics of the baby and was instantly attached to it, it was the cutest thing! She finally for the first time said "Logan" and she was kissing the picture and talking to it and kept showing it to both Colby and I and making sure we saw "Baby Logan". This poor baby will probably forever be called "Baby Logan"! haha! It was just so cute because up until now she hasn't really cared about the baby it's all been Konner, she's just kinda been oblivious, so it was really neat. Colby even got a video of it in his phone...we're such dorks!! Konner's still just as excited as ever about the baby and keeps asking to make sure that the baby will be here after Christmas! He's so excited!

I still can't believe I only have 8 weeks left! I'm honestly a bit nervous about having 3 kids running around here...although Logan won't be running for a while-thank goodness! I'm so excited though and can't believe it's almost time. I talked with our children's director today and am going to finish out December in the nursery and then take a few months off so i'm excited about that. I'm also a bit nervous because Colby is going to a photography conference 2 weeks before my due date! He'll only be gone fore about 3 days but since it's so close to my due date i'm going to be taking it very easy while he's gone. I so don't want him to be gone when I have the baby, i'm planning on doing this one all natural so he and I have been going over all the different relaxation stuff and getting all ready for it. I'm sure I can still do it if he's gone but I really don't want to have to!

Well I did finally get copies of our family pics that we got done a few weeks ago so i'll put up the main ones we got. They turned out sooo great! I love that Colby is a photographer, we are able to get family pics done every year plus we can go take pics of the kids whenever we want. They grow so stinkin fast! I couldn't believe how grown up Konner looks in these pics, I mean I know he's almost 4 but he's still supposed to look like a baby right?!? haha! Anyways here's the pics...

Saturday, November 8, 2008

This week..

Gosh this has been a busy week! We had so much going on and i'm finally getting a chance to breath now that it's Saturday!

I had another doctor's apt this week, now that i'm 30 weeks pregnant i'm going every 2 weeks so that's tons of fun. Everything looks good for both me and the baby, my iron is a little low so i'm now taking iron pills but it's nothing really major. I am really ready for this little one to get here though, it's torture not knowing if we're having a boy or girl. I guess it was my bright idea though so I can't really complain. :o) It actually has been kinda cool and at least we can say we did it with one of the kids so that's kinda fun. Konner is ready for Logan to get here though, he's always talking about the baby coming and now he likes to sit and watch my stomach move. :o) It's so cute!

I'm so excited right now because it looks like it's supposed to snow this week! I absolutely love snow!! I love to stay in warm jammies all day and watch movies and drink hot chocolate on the first snow day of the's just one of my favorite things of the whole year! I pulled out my christmas music this week and the kids and I have been listening to it alot...poor Colby! He doesn't like it all that much but the kids and I so enjoy it so he puts up with it for us. :o)

We actually got our family pictures done this week too. Since Colby works at a photography studio we're able to get our family pics done every year plus we can actually send out christmas cards. The pics turned out so great!!! I'll have to post some once we get them but I was really excited that they turned out so good. I was a bit nervous becasue with me being 7 months preggo I didn't want to look huge in the pics but you actually can't even tell that i'm pregnant! They just came out so great!!!

Also Lexi's birthday was on Thursday, she is now officially 2 years old and talking like crazy. We had her party at Mr Gattis so that was so much fun. I'll put up some pics of it...everything went so well. She had to much fun opening her gifts and eating her cake but I think one of her favorite parts was when everyone sang "Happy birthday". She got the biggest smile on her face and absolutely loved it! Here's a few pics...

Saturday, October 25, 2008

I'm so bad about this...

It's been almost 2 weeks since I posted last, i've got to get better about blogging! I think about it every few days but just don't make myself sit down and do it! :o)

Things are going good around here and i'm starting to get really exited about the holidays and the baby coming. I can't believe it's already time to start thinking about this stuff!! Lexi's birthday is in less than 2 weeks, and I absolutely cannot believe she's going to be 2. It does not seem like 2 years ago that she was feels more like last week! haha! Colby and I are having fun getting everything ready for the party, he of course made the invitations and they turned out awesome. We've ordered the cake and now all that's left is shopping! We are going to try to take it easy on the gifts this year though since Christmas is so soon, plus we're going to get her something special when the baby gets here so there's plenty to look forward to. But having the party at Mr Gattis has made this the easiest party we've done yet!! I really have very little to do which is wonderful plus the room will be big enough that the people who don't like each other won't have to deal with each other!! :o) Works out great!!

Konner is getting to excited about baby Logan coming! Every few days he asks me if baby Logan is here yet, it's so cute. I finally told him that baby Logan won't be here till after Christmas so now he just reminds Colby and I all the time that baby Logan will be here after Christmas!! I just know the day after Christmas he's going to come is our room first thing in the morning and ask where baby Logan is!! haha! He still thinks we're having a girl...actually he told me that my baby Logan is a boy and his baby Logan is a girl! I'm not really sure how well that's going to work but that's what he figured out the other day. I love that he's excited about the baby coming, he's older this time so he'll have more fun than he did with Lexi. Lexi is actually doing ok with the whole baby idea too, she's become obsessed with her dolls though so that's fun. She's always carrying one of her dolls around and showing us her "bebe". :o) She's so cute!

I just can't believe I only have 12 weeks left till my due date! It does not feel like i've been pregnant for that long and now it's almost over. It's kinda sad because we've decided that this'll be our last baby so i'm trying to enjoy everything as much as I can. I am to the point now where I can feel more than just flutterings, I can actually make out arms and feet! It's such a cool feeling! I've really done a pretty good job so far of watching my weight with this one too. At the first of my pregnancy I lost about 12 lbs and so far i'm still have 2 lbs to go before I hit pre-pregnancy weight so i'm really excited about that! It's much different than the 60 lbs I gained with Konner!! I was a walking cow with him!! haha! I'm hoping I don't gain very much in this last trimester although I know i'll gain some, but I really want to keep it around 10 lbs or so. I've been drinking tons and tons of water so I know that's playing a huge part in it, i'm actually not retaining water this time!! Yeah!

But before the baby comes we still have Thanksgiving and Christmas first and of course i'm excited about both of those! I think those 2 holidays are my favorites out of the whole year! I love all the food at Thanksgiving and getting to sit around with the family and do nothing but eat! haha! That'll go great with my whole only gaining 10 more lbs huh?!? haha! I'm also really excited because this year for the first time since Colby and I got together we aren't going to be fighting with any family about when we're going to who's house!! We already have it figured out and everyone's ok with it!!! I think i'm still a little in shock that's it's all done already. haha! Colby's family will be out of town on Thanksgiving so we can spend the day with my family and to ourselves and as for Christmas we'll spend Christmas eve evening with Colby's family and Christmas day with my family! That doesn't sound like all that big of a deal but it's huge for us to have that figured out and not have anyone upset about any of it! I'm thrilled!!!

So even though we still have 12 weeks before the baby comes I know that is going to fly by! We have so much going on in the next 2 months and before I know it it'll be time for the baby to come. I can't believe i'm going to be a mother of 3! That just seems so weird! haha! I'm so excited but also very nervous...lets just say i've been spending alot of time praying for peace and patience! Of course when you pray for patience you're put in situations that require you to practice patience! So I guess with 2 toddlers and a newborn around here i'll have plenty of opportunities to practice patience!

Well since both the kids are sleeping I think i'm going to go scrapbook for awhile...

Monday, October 13, 2008

It's finally cold!!!

I am so excited about the weather today!! Right now it is 45f and the high for today is only 54f! I am so excited that it's finally getting cold, it's felt like summer way to long. I'm just hoping that it'll last now. We didn't get near enough snow here last year so I want tons and tons this year, plus the kids will have a blast going out and playing in the snow this year.

Well Colby went back to work today, he'd been off for a total of 9 days so it is a little weird not having him here. Poor Lexi really didn't understand why daddy was leaving so she had a bit of a hard time when he left. Poor guy actually started getting sick on Saturday, he'd been fine all week but on his last real day off he got sick. As nice as it's been to have him home it'll be nice to get everything back into our routine. I haven't been this thrown off in my house work in a long now i'm going to have to work a little harder to get things going again. But it'll work out fine, I have a little extra laundry to do and a few deep cleaning jobs to get done but then I should be back to normal.

We actually didn't get any of our big cleaning jobs done while he was off though-I hate that!!! It ended up raining a lot last week so we didn't get to the lawn or the garage, I really have no idea when we'll actually get another chance to get those done. Colby's off again on Thursday so maybe he can get the lawn done and then we can clean out the garage on Sunday when the kids are gone. Who knows... :o)

On Thursday we went and played tennis with my dad again and this time Colby got to go with us so we got some pretty good pictures of Konner.We really had such a great time and Konner is getting really good. It's so funny though because he always has his mouth open when he goes to hit the ball-as you can see in those pics! He has such a great time though and I think my dad really enjoys it too. Lexi and I end up running around the courts picking up tennis balls most of the time so she has a good time too. Well I guess I better get to all that catch up house work that I Was talking about, enjoy the pics! :o)

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Overall update

I haven't been on here in a while-I think I start out most bloggs this way! A lot has been going on around here, first of all our computer broke down for a few weeks so that was loads of fun. Lucky for me Colby knows how to fix computer stuff so he had it up and running a lot sooner than I was expecting. Then i've just been busy with the kids and baby stuff so I haven't taken the time to sit and blog.

Ok baby stuff first....everything looks great so far! We had a sonogram done about 2 weeks ago and everything looked good, all the bones are the right size, the spine looks good all that stuff. The baby weighed 1lb 1oz which is a good size and the heartbeat was I think 147 so that was awesome. They also did a 3-D sono so that was super cool-when my scanner is working again i'll put some up. They printed off tons of pics for us to keep and even gave each of the kids their own picture...Konner loved looking at his picture of "baby Logan"! It was so cute!

I'm doing good so far, I actually feel really great...I don't even feel pregnant most of the time. Then of course baby starts kicking and I remember very quickly! haha I'm starting to get up off the floor a lot slower and I can't reach down to pick stuff up off the floor as easy but that's ok. I've also started to do a bit of waddling! It feels like i'm starting that super early but i'm not doing it very bad, just a little here and there after a long day. So far I haven't gained much weight...actually I haven't really gained any so far. At the start of my pregnancy I lost about 10-15 lbs so i'm slowly gaining that back. At my last doctor's apt I still had I think 7lbs to gain to be up to pre-preg weight, but we'll see at my apt tomorrow just how close I am to pre-preg weight now! haha

The kids are doing great as always! Konner is the most entertaining little boy in the world!! We got him a batman mask at the store a few weeks ago and most of each day you'll find him wearing it...along with his huge incredible hulk gloves and purple cape! He makes quite the super hero! haha He and I are slowly starting to work on school now, he knows most of his abc's and all the shape's and colors...all the basic stuff. I think we're going to get some pre-K books and start working on some of the other stuff...math and reading...all that good stuff.

Lexi...she is growing so fast! I can't believe her birthday is in a month! It's so hard to believe I have 2 toddlers running around my house! She is growing so fast and talking like crazy, she'll repeat just about anything you-or Konner-say to her. But it's fun cause she still has her own language that gets thrown in there quite often. haha! I'm really excited about her birthday party...we're having it at Mr Gatti's which is the kids favorite place to go. I think we've decided on a 101 Dalmations theme, now we just have to decide what gifts to get her. I always have to watch Colby around birthday's and christmas, he can go a little crazy with the gift-giving! Luckily I don't think we are going to get her pony stuff this time-we'll see if Colby can actually stick to that though. The poor girl has so many stinkin pony's!!! :o) But she does love them so that's a good thing...either way i'm super excited!

As for Colby, he's doing great! His job just seems to be getting better and better, he is doing so well there and it's wonderful because it's a job he absolutely loves which just makes all the difference in the world!!! Starting Saturday he begins his week of vacation!! I'm really excited, he'll have a total of 9 days off to hang out with me and the kids! This will be our first "vacation" time so i'm really looking forward to it. All we really have planned is a bunch of stuff around the house, we're going to clean out the garage-yikes!-mow the lawn, do odd jobs around the house...all that good stuff. But it'll be fun because it gives us a chance to actually get this things done. I think we've been needing to clean out the garage for about a year now?! haha Either way i'm looking forward to it.

Well now that i've written a book :o) I guess i'll get some more stuff done around here, Colby will be off in about an hour and I still have a few things to get done before I can just relax for the evening.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


This has really been a pretty good day, nothing major exciting has happened and all in all things have gone really smoothly. I love days like this, nothing to exciting going on and I get the chance to catch up on things around the house and spend time enjoying the kids! I spent about 45 min today cleaning the house and was actually able to get everything done...I do still have to go back and re-clean the kitchen after dinner tonight and I have some laundry to do but honestly that's not bad. I think it's pretty go to be able to clean the whole house in about 45 minuets-can you tell i'm a little proud of myself?!? haha!

I'm also really excited about diner tonight! We're having beef stew and cornbread and it sounds so so yummy...although we won't be eating for another 3 hours. It's days like today that I love being a stay at home mom, I love spending time doing things around the house and doing things for the kids-although getting 100 cups of juice every day can get a little old. :o)

Colby's grandparents came over today to see the kids, they live about an hour away so they don't get to see them very often. Both of them have grown so much since the last time they saw them so i'm sure they enjoyed the visit. They kept talking about Konner and how much energy he has, poor thing I think he was making them tired just watching him! haha He is one active kid that's for sure. I don't think I could've kept up with him if i'd been any older when I had him! :o) He's super sweet though, there's not a person that knows him that doesn't just love his little personality. Miss Lexi is following his footsteps too, she's got her own little personality but always tries to keep up with brother-poor thing, some days that's really hard to do.

Anyways, I guess I better get to that laundry I was talking about...

Monday, September 15, 2008

Just a quick chatch up

Ok so i'm really not very good at keeping this updated!! I think about blogging most every day but making the time to actually sit and do it is a whole other story. We have been kinda busy around here the last few weeks so i'm just going to excuse the fact that I haven't written anything! haha!

I've been super busy with the kids lately, we've gone and done a bunch more stuff with them than normal. We've been to Jump n Jive, Mr Gatti's, the park, we even went and played tennis with my dad a few days ago. All in all we've been going and doing alot! Playing tennis was so much fun though, it was Konner's first time and he and my dad had so much fun. They played for about an hour and Konner was actually really good, I think he even surprised my dad a little bit (he's as talented as his mother!!). I do think he's going to be very athletic which should be interesting since neither Colby or I are super into sports so I guess we'll see how that turns out.

I'm trying to be better about taking time to enjoy the kids, most days I get so caught up in all the things that I need to get done and forget to just take out time all through out the day to sit and play with the kids or just talk to them, or even just sit and watch a movie with them in my lap. It's so hard to believe that Konner is almost 4 and Lexi will be 2! I can't even believe that they've been a part of my life for that long, it just doesn't seem real!

Things seem to be good with the baby so that's awesome. At my last doctor's apt everything looked good, i'm healthy and baby's heartbeat sounds great. We do have a sono scheduled for Thursday to check all the measurements and all that fun stuff so i'm excited about that. It will be hard to not find out what we're having since we're at the point where we could if we wanted to but I really do want to wait and be surprised. We've waited this long so what's a few more months?!? It is so much fun to feel the baby move, even thought it wasn't that long ago that I was pregnant with Lexi you do kind forget just how cool it does feel. Just a tiny little reminder that he/she's there. :o)

Things at Colby's job are going well, they are working on some new senior programs that sound really awesome but if I tried to explain them would just get you confused. haha It's so fun to see him bring work home and watch him put so much of his free time into finding ways to make these programs work. God has really blessed him in his career and i'm so glad He has. Colby just seems to grow and mature in his work and personal life every day and it's really great to watch and be a part of.

Well I guess now that i've finally gotten the chance to sit a blog for a bit I should get to all the other things I need to do...this crazy house work just never seems to end!! haha!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Back home

I had forgotten just how good it is to get home from vacation!! Colby and I went to Dallas this last weekend, he had a photography conference for work and I tagged along since it was a paid trip! :o) We had fun but I really am glad to get back home. It was the first time in a while that I had about 2 days to do absolutely nothing, it was sooo nice! I laid around and watched movies-now I know why we don't have cable!- and read the whole time. It's really funny how doing absolutely nothing can make you so sleepy! haha! I felt so drained by the time we were ready to leave and I hadn't done anything. :o)But anyways, it's good to be back home...

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I'm so tired...

And it's only noon!!! I woke up this morning about 7:30 and right away started on house work and it's really catching up with me. Colby and I are going out of town this weekend so i'm doing a major deep cleaning job on the whole house this week. I woke up yesterday and had tons of energy and really wanted to get all this work done since this weekend I won't have to do anything!!

Yesterday I deep cleaned mine and Colby's room and washed, dried and folded about 7 or 8 loads of laundry plus did a basic clean up job of the rest of the house. Today i'm doing a deep cleaning of the kitchen...i've been working for about 2 hours and I still have about an hours worth of work to do. My kitchen is tiny!! I have no clue how i'm able to spend 3 hours cleaning in's really not that dirty. I'm pulling stuff out of the cabinets and cleaning out drawers and washing all the doors, so i'm really doing a very detailed job...something i'm not sure i've done in the year that we've lived here.

I'm hoping to get the kitchen, bathroom and kids room done today. The bathroom should only take about 45 minuets because I just did a very detailed job in there a few weeks ago. So that one should be easy. But the kids room is another story! :o) I'm not really sure how detailed i'll get in there because it's still a few more days till we leave town and they will have probably destroyed the whole room by the end of today! haha so i'll probably just do a basic clean up job in there. So really I guess I only have another few hours of hard work and then I can just do basic clean up-that never seems to end-for the rest of the day. :o)

I'm so excited about this weekend! For the first time in 4 years i'll have some really time to myself. We are leaving the kids with my mom and some friends of ours and Colby and I are going to Dallas for a few days, he's going to a photography conference and i'm going to sit in the hotel and do absolutely nothing!!! :o) I'm planning on taking tons of books and movies and just spending most of the time vegging out and doing exactly what i'd like to do. I'll actually have a few days where I don't have to get any cups or cheerios or peanut butter sandwiches! haha I'm really excited...if you can't tell!!!

Ok I guess I better get back to work...Just a few more days!!! :o)

Friday, August 22, 2008

My newest idea

I haven't posted a new blog in a while, i'm really bad about letting this whole thing go for to long. I've never been very good at keeping a diary all the time, I do enjoy writing but have to have something going on to make myself actually do it. Anyways i've been thinking alot and doing tons of reading online and i've decided that i'm going to go natural with this goal is no drugs at all! This will be the first time i've done that since I had an epidural with both other kids so i'm super nervous but I really want to do this plus I really think I can.

It's funny because this is my 3 time around at this so you'd think I have it down pretty good but no, I don't. This is completely different for me and something I really didn't think I would ever do. For one thing it means that even if I go past my due date I won't be induced! Konner was a week late and I was induced a little bit with him and with Lexi I had scheduled my induction so i'm a little nervous that this little one will get to cozy in there and decide not to come out! :o)

There really is so much more information out there other than just the whole lamaze stuff so i've been reading as much as I can find and talking with Colby about it-who by the way thinks I need to be committed for deciding to do this! haha! But i'm super excited and nervous about it! I'm going to have my friend Chelsea in the room with us the whole time so that'll be wonderful! I really think her and Colby will be able to help kind of coach me through this whole thing or at least help me laugh the whole time! I am a little worried about scaring her to death though, this will be the first time she's been in the room during all the "fun" as far as I know and it is quite the experience!

I'm planning on talking to my doctor next week about this and seeing what he thinks are some of the best things that I can do during all of this...I know I want to walk around alot. I'm not really sure how that'll work because i know they like to constantly monitor the baby which would keep me in bed the whole time, but i'm sure there are other things they can do also. So I guess we'll see what he has to say about my bright idea!

We're doing this whole thing so different this time around...going all natural and not finding out what we're having! It's crazy how this is the third time we're doing this but yet because we're doing it so differently it really feels like the first time. I'm all nervous and worried and excited...of course I guess that comes with every pregnancy. The first time I was nervous because I didn't know what to expect, then with Lex I was nervous because I DID know what to expect :o) now this time we're doing things alot different so it's just making it it's own special experience.

Anyways...I guess that's enough rambling about stuff that's really not a big deal to anyone except me! haha But it is fun to type it all out and then later look back and read all my ramblings!

Monday, August 11, 2008

New mercy every day!

As I said in my last blog i've really been feeling down lately and struggling with just about everything. Well God is awesome because He knew exactly where i've been and once again is helping me get through this. Yesterday at church we had our Connect service which is an evening of praise and prayer, so since we were having it that evening yesterday morning Pastor David taught on Connection with God. I don't think i've needed to hear a sermon more in a long time. I realized that my whole problem has been that i've been letting my personal relationship with God sit on the back burner of my life. When Colby and I talked on Friday that was even brought up and we talked about how we both need to really get better about having time in the word everyday so it was really great to hear more about it on Sunday.

Some of what Pastor David said was just so great, he said that "God connection is meant to produce life in every area of life-spirit, mind and body". It made me realize when he said that...that's what i've been missing! My spirit life is lacking so every other area of my life is lacking! After having been a christian for most of my life you'd think i'd have something as basic as that down but I haven't been doing a very good job of implementing it into my every day life.

Pastor David also said "Just because you've connected with God in the past doesn't mean you can never connect with Him again in new ways". That really made me think because i've really been satisfied with where i'm at and that's always a scary place to be! I mean I know I need to grow but for the most part i've become pretty comfortable with where i'm at and I really needed to be shaken out of that comfort zone.

"If Satan can stop you from connecting with God, he can stop YOU! You don't go without God!" That has been the big thing missing from my life lately, I haven't been connecting with God so everything in my life has been off. It's slowly happened so I haven't really seen it coming. I've had so much going on with the kids and staying busy just with life that i've pushed my connection with God to the back of my "to-do" list. In the process i've allowed Satan to convince me that i'm not good enough at my life as a wife and mom so I feel like I need to do more and be better and i've just ended up getting busier trying to make up for all the things i'm not doing.

Honestly no, my house isn't perfectly clean 100% of the time and the kids don't behave perfectly 100% of the time but that's ok. I'm seeing that I don't have to be perfect 100% of the time-and that's a good thing to realize since I will NEVER be perfect!! My kids are happy and healthy and completely loved...whether or not the house stays clean at all times. Also I believe that when I put God first in my day and my life He'll help me to improve in the other areas...

Luke 12:22-31 (The Message)
22-24He continued this subject with his disciples. "Don't fuss about what's on the table at mealtimes or if the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your inner life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the ravens, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, carefree in the care of God. And you count far more.

25-28"Has anyone by fussing before the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? If fussing can't even do that, why fuss at all? Walk into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They don't fuss with their appearance—but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them. If God gives such attention to the wildflowers, most of them never even seen, don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you?

29-32"What I'm trying to do here is get you to relax, not be so preoccupied with getting so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep yourself in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Don't be afraid of missing out. You're my dearest friends! The Father wants to give you the very kingdom itself.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Ups and downs, downs, downs...

This last week has been really hard, i've been going through alot emotionally and just feeling so down. I hate even blogging about it but talking about things always helps so this should too right?! :o) I am now 17 weeks pregnant and boy are hormones taking a toll on me...i'm always so hormonal during my pregnancy but this time it's not just mood swings that i'm dealing with. I've been so down about things lately and I hate that, I really try to be a positive person and really enjoy things in life but i've been having a hard time of that lately.

Last night Colby and I went to dinner and sat and talked for about 2 hours about everything that's been going on inside of me. I've really been beating myself up about alot of things and feeling like i'm failing him and the kids. I've been wondering if the kids are doing well with me as a mom, or if i'm really causing them to lack. I so want to give them everything they need for an amazing future and I know they're pretty young now but you really can't start to early.

One thing Colby asked me was where all this is coming from and I honestly don't know. There's nothing I can think of specifically that i'm doing or not doing that makes me think they are lacking, I mean they are 2 of the happiest kids in the world! At least 5 times a day Konner comes up and gives me a hug or kiss and tells me he loves me, and Lexi is constantly wanting to sit in my lap and just let me hold her. Surly if i'm doing a horrible job as a mom those things wouldn't be going on regularly right?

After dinner last night I was feeling so much better just having gotten it all out there and not letting my mind go crazy with worry anymore, and even this morning with the kids I did great. But now the kids are taking a nap and suddenly my mind starts racing with all these thoughts again...stupid brain!! :o) I really think all the changes going on with me being pregnant and us about to be a family of 5 is just causing all least that's what I keep telling myself. But all the "what if's" are driving me crazy! Gosh I love being pregnant but the hormones are no fun at all!! :o)

Again i'm not really sure what the point of this whole thing just feels good to get some of this off my chest! So I guess that's all for now...hopefully the next blog won't be such a downer!! :o)

Thursday, July 31, 2008

The joys of parenting

Well this has been an interesting last few days...we are having Vacation Bible School at our church this week and it's a Star Wars theme so we were super excited that Konner was getting to go-he absolutely loves Star Wars!! Well on Monday night he got scared in there so he ended up having to stay with me, then on Tuesday night he did great but Lexi got sick, then last night she was still sick, now tonight i'm sick and tomorrow is just a family fun night. So poor Konner only got to go to one night of Star Wars VBS. :o( I feel so bad for him since I know how much fun he would've had all week. But I guess there's always next won't be Star Wars but i'm sure he'll still have a great time.

My poor Lexi had such a hard time Tuesday evening and most of Wednesday, I don't know what exactly she got but it hit her pretty hard! So far we've been so blessed and she's hasn't been sick since she was about 6 mo old, so it was really hard to see her so sick. But thankfully it was only a 24 bug so she's doing great now...however she decided to pass it on to me! I haven't had it as bad as she did but it's still no fun! I haven't been sick in forever much less sick while taking care of 2 very active kiddos, but thankfully the kids are great and have made it really easy. I'm starting to get a little energy back and i'm not quite as queasy...I just couldn't handle sitting in my chair anymore!!!

There's so much I need to get done around here, all of the basic housework that just never seems ot end plus a bunch of little things that i'm always wanting to get done but never actually get to! haha! Also we are going to be starting on school work with Konner-I was actually supposed to start today but that didn't go very well. We got him the Hooked on Phonics Pre-K program and he's super excited to start doing his school work...hopefully that excitement will last awhile! It looks like it'll be alot of fun for him, plus it comes with computer games he can play so he'll LOVE that! I'm really excited about it...

My mom is going to have the kids again tomorrow night so that'll be very nice, but we aren't having our couples group since it's VBS family night so i'm not really sure what Colby and I will do. We really need to go grocery shopping so most likely that's what we'll spend the evening doing, and then maybe come home and watch a movie! Don't we sound like so much fun?!? haha! I do enjoy our evenings just the 2 of us, it's nice to get to talk and relax without having to get up 100 times to tell the kids to get back in bed. :o) But we don't have very many more Friday nights without any kids, as soon as this little one gets here he/she will be staying with us on Friday nights for quite awhile, but that's ok I don't mind.

I can't wait to have a newborn around again, but it will take some getting used to that's for sure. Right now Lexi seems so little to me but I know once the baby gets here she's going to look HUGE! I know that's how it was when she was born...I had never really thought of Konner as big but seeing him next to her was crazy. All-of-a-sudden he was a giant! haha! It's funny how that works. I can't wait, the first few months are always so fun and so challenging all at the same time.

Well Big Brother is about to start so I guess i'll go for now...yes I am a loser Big Brother fan! :o)

Friday, July 25, 2008

Looking back...

Gosh sometimes I still get amazed at how fast time goes by...Wednesday Colby and I celebrated our 4th anniversary. On our way to dinner I told him it felt like yesterday we were dropping the kids off at my moms house to celebrate our 3rd anniversary and here it is, already a year later. So many things have changed, and then again not so much-if that makes any sense. We had such a good time on our date, we went to dinner at BL Bistro-which by the way is the best restaurant in town!!!-and then went to see Get Smart. That was kinda funny because we were the only people in the theater at first but right as the movie started another couple came in.

I still love the fact that I love to date my husband! I know that 4 years doesn't seem like that long to alot of people but when I see how many marriages don't even make it to the 4th anniversary I see that it is something to be proud of. I like looking back over the few years that Colby and I have been together and thinking about everything we've made it through-and even the things we almost didn't make it through. It helps me remember what we've come through and even what we still have to go through. I think about our first year of marriage and how hard it really was, and how hard Satan was working to make it so we didn't get to our 2nd anniversary. But that only reminds me how awesome God is and how faithful He is to meet us right where we are. He picks us up in the middle of the mess we've made of things and teaches us once again how to stand on, and lean on Him for everything.

Looking back we had so much to learn when we first got married-which isn't surprising considering we were only 18!! Gosh, it's so funny to look back and see how little I knew about being a wife!! :o) It's what i'd always wanted to do but in all my day-dreaming about it I never really understood how much work it really is. I always thought it would all just be fairy tales and day-dreams and so I was so shocked when I got into it and there was almost nothing "fairytale" about it and it was definitely not like all my little girl day-dreams!!

I'm so glad that even though Colby and I did a pretty good job of really screwing things up that first year God did an awesome job of teaching us how to fix it. It's great though because unlike when we first got married and thought we had everything figured out, we can see on a regular basis just how little we really know! haha! We've discovered that marriage isn't something you just know how to do, it's something you have to be taught and learn. I'm still learning how to be married and probably will be even when we've been married 50 years! But i'm glad that God has given us the tools to learn how to be married so we CAN be married for 50 years! We are so blessed to have a young couples group in out church, and to have pastor's that have such a heart for us and for teaching us how to be married.

Anyways, all this rambling just to say that i'm very happy that i'm married to my husband and i'm so thankful that he's the man I get to spend my life with!!!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Nothing really new...

It's amazing that as a stay at home nothing new really happens! My days are pretty much the same...I don't really mind it but I do feel kinda silly blogging about the same thing all the time. That's pretty much why I don't blog every day, I have to wait until something interesting happens around here! haha! But honestly I kinda like my plain boring life, in a few years things the kids will be into all kinds of activities so I need to enjoy this time of staying around the house with nothing to do besides housework. We've already talked about looking into some kind of sports activity for Konner next year. That kid loves to run and play, I likes soccer and baseball and even tennis. Colby and I are a little worried about the whole sports thing because neither of us are really all that into sports. I guess we'll have to dive right in and learn as much as we can about whatever sport he decides he likes.

We did finally get some pics done so I can finally show ya'll what I look like with glasses!! I still feel like I look like a dork but I can see alot better and have much fewer headaches so it's worth it!

Here's a picture of me and Lexi-since I just put one of me and Konner I have to put one of me and Lexi!

I've been super busy with the baby shower i've been planning, i'm actually making some of the stuff for the shower so i've been busy with all that. It's really pretty fun getting all crafty! I'm not usually a crafty person aside from scrapbooking so i'm really excited with how well this is all going. I'll have to post pics of everything once i'm done with it all, and i'll have to wait until after the shower just in case the mommy-to-be reads this! ;o) Well I guess I better go get to my laundry, that stuff never ends!!!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

The last few days

Well life is back to normal I guess. Colby's been off for the last 4 days so that was wonderful but it's always so hard to go back to normal days after that. This morning I woke up to Konner coming in the room to tell me he had pooped his pants-great start to the day! It's not all that bad though, i'm planning to spend the day cleaning the house, for some reason when Colby's off work I always fall behind on my house work! I don't really know why, we're home most of the day but it's just so hard to do house work when he's here. I guess I just want to enjoy our family time so I let it slide. So that's mostly what i'll be doing today, house work and laundry...loads of fun-no pun intended! ;o)

Some really great news though is we got to have a sonogram yesterday so I finally have a due date!! I'm due January 18th which means i'm 12 weeks pregnant!! I'm really excited! The nurse printed off a picture for Konner and Lexi both to have so that was really cool, although i'm not really sure Konner understood exactly what it was. He did say that it looked scary and the baby was going to cry! haha! I guess that is kinda true though, those can look kinda freaky! haha!

Also I got glasses last week, i'm still getting used to wearing them though. Konner doesn't like them very much, he's always telling me to take off my glasses so he can see my eyes! I'll have to have Colby take a picture of me in them so I can show everyone. I'm getting my hair done tomorrow so maybe after that i'll have him take a picture. Well I guess that's all, nothing major exciting...I guess i'll get to my house work now! :o)

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Such a lazy day

Today it's been so hard to make myself do much of anything! I got up this morning and cleaned my kitchen and picked up the living room and then was so exhausted from that little bit of work that I had to sit for awhile! I so cannot wait till i'm further along in this pregnancy and I finally get some energy back!!! All in all it's been a pretty good day, just battling the sleepies!

Now I have to brag on my wonderful husband just a little bit! Last night I was having kind of a hard night, the kids were crazy and we'd just had a hard day, so around 8:30ish I realized that we needed to go get a few things at the store. Colby let me go so that I could get some sanity back and he stayed here with the kids...well while I was gone he and the kids cleaned up the living room really really well-vacuumed and everything!! I was so excited to not get home and have to do it and it really just made my evening. He's so sweet to me and it may not sound like very much but it meant the world to me last night!

We have alot planned for this weekend so i'm excited about that...Colby has a 4 day weekend since it's the fourth so we want to get some stuff done around the house. We are planning on rearranging the kids room and even doing some rearranging in our room, plus i'd love to get the garage cleaned out and organized. I guess we'll see how much of that we really get done but i'm hoping we get most if not all of it done. I would be so great to just do it and have it over with!!! I guess we'll see...ok i'm off to read some more of my book now! :o)

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Just another Saturday

Last night the kids stayed with my mom for the first time all month, she usually keeps them every Friday night but she's been busy with summer camps. It was so great to have the evening off, I mean I love my kids and enjoy spending time with them but any parent would have to admit that breaks are wonderful and help to keep you sane! So since my mom had the kids Colby and I spent the evening eating a dinner of grilled cheese sandwiches and chips and hot sauce while watching Ocean's Eleven. Doesn't that sound like the funnest evening you've ever heard of?!? To top it off we even went to bed at mom and kids didn't even go to bed till 11:00!! We're now officially old! haha! But it was great to have a fun relaxing evening just hanging out doing nothing, we don't get to do that very often.

Then this morning I got up and finished filling out all the invitations for the baby shower that i'm throwing while watching Pride and Prejudice...which just happens to be one of the greatest movies of all time! I really do enjoy days where nothing much is required, I don't get those days often. It's funny, Colby honestly expects so little of me right now and it's great, but at the same time I expect so much of myself that I have to fight living on a constant guilt trip about what i'm not doing. I've had a really hard time during this pregnancy, I haven't been very sick but I have absolutely NO energy for anything. I'm able to take care of the kids and do a basic cleaning job around the house but after that I feel like i've just run a marathon! I just keep trying to remind myself that as long as the kids are taken care of that's what's most important and i'm doing a good job. I saw a quote, and actually used it in my scrapbook, that says "Cleaning your house while your kids are still growing is like shoveling the walk while it's still snowing" and that is sooo true!!

I can't wait for next week, we actually have alot going on that i'm really excited about. First of all Colby is off work on Sunday (of course) and Monday so we'll have 2 days together which will be great, but the best part is he only has to work 3 days next week and then he gets a 4 day weekend since it's the fourth of July weekend!! I love days when he's home, we all have such a good time together and the kids absolutely love "daddy time". Also I should be getting my glasses in on Monday or Tuesday so i'll finally be able to see, something that I haven't been able to really do for the last 5 years! haha! Then I have my first doctor's apt on Thursday so i'm really excited about that, i'm hoping that we'll get to set up a sonogram sometime soon because i'm dying to know how far along I am!!! I think i'm due sometime in January but I honestly have no idea and when you tell people that they tend to look at you funny. So i'll be glad to know...We did finally decided on names though so that's great, for a boy the name will be Logan Chase and for a girl it will be Logan Audrey. It might seem kinda weird that we're using Logan for either a boy or girl but I really love the name and when I thought about using it for a girl I absolutely loved it!!

Well I guess i've rambled on and on about nothing long enough so i'll stop for now....if I don't stop i'll have nothing to ramble about tomorrow!! haha!

Friday, June 27, 2008

It's been way to long...

This morning I was checking my email and I got a notification that a new comment was posted on my blog....which was a surprise to me since I had completely forgotten that I even had a blog! So I decided to come and update some stuff on here, i'm going to try to start posting on here regularly but we'll just see how that goes. I don't ever feel like enough goes on in my life to really get on here and write about but maybe it's more like a journal and I should just talk about the day to day stuff that happens. So here goes...

This morning I woke up to my daughter trying to climb up on my bed, every morning she comes in my room and wants me to get her a cup of juice. Well last night I decided to just put a cup on her bed so that when she woke up she'd find it and not come wake me up at 7:00 am. Well it didn't work very well....she drank that whole cup and still came in my room wanting more at 7:00-it's like clock work with her. I swear that girl is a complete camel!!! So I changed her diaper and put her back to bed, well of course she ended up waking Konner-the joys of them sharing a room-so the two of them got up and started playing with their toys. Not a big deal since they are in their room and it gives me more time to sleep right? Wrong! They ended up coming out every few minuets asking for something so I finally just got up. I went in their room and discovered that one of Konner's stuffed animals had a hole, and Konner had figured out how fun it was to take the stuffing out of that hole and spread it all over his bed and floor. That wouldn't have been a big deal if the stuffing had been cotton but instead it was beady styrofoam that sticks to everything!!! It ended up taking him and I about 20 minuets to clean the whole mess up and at least it got me wide awake. Now i'm going to try to get the rest of my house work done since I got a fairly early start on the day....I know 8:00 isn't early to alot of people but for this preggo momma it's early!! haha!

Here are pictures of the kids now since I haven't posted in forever.

Here is Konner, ignore the red around his mouth, he started chewing on his lips when we took the passy away and we still haven't gotten him to stop!

And this is Lexi, she's so sinkin pretty!!!