Far Too Long

6 Weeks. Yesterday was the 6 week mark of my last post on here. I haven't gone that long without writing in almost a year! I have thought about all of you so many times during these weeks and ached to get back here, yet every time I sit down to write again something comes up. Either my house is a mess, my kids need something, exhaustion takes over, or a complete lack of knowing what to say sets in. Regardless of the reason, I have now seen 6 weeks go by without so much as a "Hello" to all of my wonderful readers!

But today is my birthday! So as my present to myself, I am forcing myself to ignore as much housework as possible and sit down for a cup of coffee with all of you. Somehow though, i'm at a loss. The same fear I used to feel every time I sat down to write has set in all over again and I feel as though i'm back in uncomfortable territory with all of you.

I have never been a very confidant person, never very bold in what I say to others when it comes to my thoughts and opinions on things. Until this blog. Writing on here about marriage over the last several months took me to a whole new place! It was a place where I could openly say exactly what I thought and believed and the worst that would happen was i'd get a harsh comment or possibly lose a follower every now and then. I began to get a little more confidence and sort of find my way a little bit. I started learning how to share what I really thought about things and yet do it with complete love for those that didn't agree with me.

Then, just as I began to get comfortable God started changing things up on me and pushing me further into uncomfortable territory and my husband and I started teaching a couples group at our church. And I just thought writing about things was difficult!! Talking face to face with people about things you believe in and things the bible teaches is a whole different ball game! You can see their faces when they disagree with you and for someone who really wants people to like them, that can be a hard thing to take.

But I am constantly reminding myself of a saying I heard some time ago that says, "God does not call the qualified, He qualifies the called". I know that was the case when I started writing this blog and I believe that to be the case in the new faze of ministry that we have found ourselves in now.

But where does that leave this blog?!? As I said several weeks ago, I know i'm not done here. I love writing and talking openly and honestly with all of you about real things that are going on in life. But I don't think i'm going to just talk about marriage on here anymore. I know that talking about many different subjects is a huge "no-no" in the world of blogging but I think that limiting this place to only one topic simply cuts out a lot of important things! There are so many blogs out there on marriage, parenting, housekeeping, recipes, and the list goes on and on. I simply can't compete with them, so i'm not even going to try! I am just going to be me. I'm going to write how I write and talk about things that God puts on my heart. The topics may be all over the place and I may miss days here and there (although I will try to not go 6 weeks without writing ever again!) but that's just how i've decided to do things. :o)

If you have stuck with me all this time, even though i've gone so long without writing, I want to say a HUGE thank you to you! You readers are why I write. I love "talking" with each of you about all the many things we've talked about before and can't wait to start talking again. I've said before that I really want to talk about things that really interest you guys so if there is anything you would like to read about or hear discussed on here please let me know! You can comment on here, email me at joinmeforcoffeeblog(at)gmail(dot)com, or you comment on my Facebook page as well. Wonder what we'll talk about first...