My friend Brianne and I stayed up till like 2am working on that thing but Lexi loved it so it was totally worth it! :o) Now we're getting ready for Logyn's first birthday! I can't believe it's already time for her birthday, it doesn't feel like she's been here for a whole year but at the same time I can't really remember what our life was like before she came.
A HUGE part of me is very sad right now, she's our last baby so while i'm exited to watch her grow and learn new things it's also really really hard knowing that she's the last. There won't be another baby to watch learn how to roll over, or sit up, or take their first steps...she's it. So i'm trying so hard to enjoy all my time with her because I won't have another chance at this. I know I have 3 kids and i've enjoyed every bit of each of their lives, but there's just something so final to everything Logyn does.
But like Colby says, eventually there will have to be a last baby. Even if we were to have 20 kids there would at some point be a last one so i'd have to deal with this eventually. Honestly though, i'm ok with not having more kids. I can't imagine having more than these 3 running around here! :o)My mom is a little devastated that we're stopping with 3, she thinks I should have 10 kids at least! haha! But like i've told her, it'd be better to only have 3 kids and be sane than to have 10 kids and go insane! :o)
All of the kids are doing great though, Logyn is still growing like crazy and I kinda wish she would slow down. I still can't believe she started walking at 8 months! Pure craziness!! Lexi is still my little drama queen, but she's growing more beautiful every day. I looked at her today and couldn't believe how grown up she looked! She was just wearing a pair of jeans and a plain shirt but yet she looked like a little girl, she no longer looks like a toddler and it just kinda caught me by surprise.
Konner is also growing like crazy. Every day he gets more and more mature. He's changing from little boy to just boy and I don't like it! :o) The way he talks and the things he says...he's just growing so fast. The other day he asked me to teach him how to cook so that when he gets married he'll know how. He also said when he was kids he wants a boy and a girl, he'll name the girl Flower and the boy Incredible Hulk so I guess he's not fully matured! :o)
I wish there was a way to slow things down and making them last just a little longer. For the longest time-and honestly even sometimes now-I felt like I was stuck in this rut and would never get out of it. For the rest of my life I would be changing diapers and getting cups and snacks and doing all the things you do with toddlers. But i'm starting to see more and more how quickly all this will be gone. It's like that country song "You're gonna miss this", before I know it i'll be in the next faze of life and the kids won't need me to hug them when they hurt. They won't want to show me each paper they color or want me to kiss-hug-and by them before bed. They'll grow up and move into their own lives and while that's good and how it should be it's just hard to accept sometimes.
Don't get me wrong, I don't want them to stay little forever-at least I don't always want that-it's just kinda hard realizing there will come a day when i'm not everything for them. While I can't wait for them to grow up and become amazing men and women of God it's hard to believe they won't still be my little babies anymore. I won't have all the answers, I won't be able to fix every problem and hurt with a kiss and that's just kinda hard. It's so easy to get caught up in the nitty gritty every day stuff and forget that my purpose as a mom is more than just changing diapers and getting cups. My job, the whole point of being a mom is to train these kids to be world changers for God! These 3 kids can make such an impact and make such a difference if we raise them the way God wants us to. That's our goal, to raise world changers for God. To raise kids who aren't afraid to stand up for what they believe no matter the cost, kids who believe in something greater than themselves, kids that make a difference.
Anyways, i'm not exactly sure how I got off on all that. haha! Went from Lexi's birthday party to my job as a mom! See when I just start talking the topics start flowing. :o) But that's ok right?! Well now that i've rambled on I guess I should get to some house work-I also need to raise kids who help clean house! haha!
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