As I said in my last blog i've really been feeling down lately and struggling with just about everything. Well God is awesome because He knew exactly where i've been and once again is helping me get through this. Yesterday at church we had our Connect service which is an evening of praise and prayer, so since we were having it that evening yesterday morning Pastor David taught on Connection with God. I don't think i've needed to hear a sermon more in a long time. I realized that my whole problem has been that i've been letting my personal relationship with God sit on the back burner of my life. When Colby and I talked on Friday that was even brought up and we talked about how we both need to really get better about having time in the word everyday so it was really great to hear more about it on Sunday.
Some of what Pastor David said was just so great, he said that "God connection is meant to produce life in every area of life-spirit, mind and body". It made me realize when he said that...that's what i've been missing! My spirit life is lacking so every other area of my life is lacking! After having been a christian for most of my life you'd think i'd have something as basic as that down but I haven't been doing a very good job of implementing it into my every day life.
Pastor David also said "Just because you've connected with God in the past doesn't mean you can never connect with Him again in new ways". That really made me think because i've really been satisfied with where i'm at and that's always a scary place to be! I mean I know I need to grow but for the most part i've become pretty comfortable with where i'm at and I really needed to be shaken out of that comfort zone.
"If Satan can stop you from connecting with God, he can stop YOU! You don't go without God!" That has been the big thing missing from my life lately, I haven't been connecting with God so everything in my life has been off. It's slowly happened so I haven't really seen it coming. I've had so much going on with the kids and staying busy just with life that i've pushed my connection with God to the back of my "to-do" list. In the process i've allowed Satan to convince me that i'm not good enough at my life as a wife and mom so I feel like I need to do more and be better and i've just ended up getting busier trying to make up for all the things i'm not doing.
Honestly no, my house isn't perfectly clean 100% of the time and the kids don't behave perfectly 100% of the time but that's ok. I'm seeing that I don't have to be perfect 100% of the time-and that's a good thing to realize since I will NEVER be perfect!! My kids are happy and healthy and completely loved...whether or not the house stays clean at all times. Also I believe that when I put God first in my day and my life He'll help me to improve in the other areas...
Luke 12:22-31 (The Message)
22-24He continued this subject with his disciples. "Don't fuss about what's on the table at mealtimes or if the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your inner life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the ravens, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, carefree in the care of God. And you count far more.
25-28"Has anyone by fussing before the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? If fussing can't even do that, why fuss at all? Walk into the fields and look at the wildflowers. They don't fuss with their appearance—but have you ever seen color and design quite like it? The ten best-dressed men and women in the country look shabby alongside them. If God gives such attention to the wildflowers, most of them never even seen, don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you?
29-32"What I'm trying to do here is get you to relax, not be so preoccupied with getting so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep yourself in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Don't be afraid of missing out. You're my dearest friends! The Father wants to give you the very kingdom itself.