My how time has flown!

Logyn is now 8 months old! I can't believe 8 months has gone by since she was born, next month she'll have been here as long as I was pregnant which is just crazy! I thought my pregnancy went by so fast but it was nothing compared to since she's been born. My crazy girl is now starting to walk already! She took her very first steps yesterday, I just can't believe she's already starting to walk! She's done everything faster than Konner and Lexi but this is way faster than both of them, they were both 13 months and 2 weeks before they took their first steps. Once she figured out she could take a step that's the first thing she'd do every time she'd stand up which is all the time. I feel so bad for Colby though because he was at work and missed it, I was actually on the phone with him when she did it so he got to hear that she's done it. But she did good and did it again for him when he got home, and for Colby's parents when we went to dinner with them. Konner and Lex are so excited that she's trying to walk, every time she stands up now they yell for me to come watch cause she's gonna walk! It's so cute. :o)

It's so hard to believe sometimes that i'm a mom of 3, i'm only 23 years old and I already have 3 kids! I've actually had a bit of a hard time the last few weeks because i've just been feeling so overwhelmed with all of it. I know this was all my choice and don't get me wrong, I love my kids and wouldn't trade them for the world but I started feeling like i'd missed out on a lot of my life by having them. Gosh, just typing that is even hard! There's so many people out there that struggle to have babies and want them so bad and here I was not even liking mine or really even wanting them around. How awful is that?! I was the worst mother in the world!

But we had a Connect service which is a night of prayer and praise-at our church on Sunday night and God ministered so powerfully to me that night. A lady on our prayer team prayed with me and prayed peace and wisdom over me without knowing anything I was dealing with and that was exactly what I needed. I've been so lost on knowing what to do with my kids, I mean they're great kids but like everyone they have their weaknesses which have just been driving me crazy! I've needed wisdom on how to address these weaknesses and still keep myself controlled at the same time. I've also needed peace because i've just been so down and really upset with so much lately, some things that shouldn't matter and some things that really should but either way worrying over them hasn't changed a thing-surprise surprise!

I've had such a different week this week and I know it was because of Sunday night! Pastor Don said at church that morning that if we would come to the service expecting something of God that we wouldn't be disappointed and God would meet us there and that's exactly what happened! Honestly this has been a crazy week, the kids have been fighting more than normal, very little has gone smoothly and honestly I had a fairly bad morning yesterday but over all i've had a peace and calm this week that I haven't had in a long time and it's been wonderful. I'm so thankful that I serve a God that knows exactly where i'm at and comes to me even though i've done nothing to deserve it.

Well I guess I better get back to all my housework, it never seems to end which I guess is a good thing. It just means we have food to eat, clothes to wear and a house to live in-looking for the positives here! ;o)

Taking a break

Well i'm supposed to be cleaning but i'm so tired of cleaning so i'm taking a break to sit and relax for a bit. So far today i've cleaned the kitchen 3 times, washed 4 loads of laundry, cleaned and organized the kitchen counters, cleaned out and organized the fridge, cleaned off my desk, scrubbed the bathtub, toilet, and bathroom sink, deep cleaned the living room, cleaned our table-which had gotten very cluttered, and...I think that's it. I still need to...fold the laundry, deep clean my room-it's a DISASTER!-vacuum the house, change and wash all our bedding and sweep and mop the kitchen and bathroom. But I think some of that will just have to wait till tomorrow, there's just not enough hours in my day. Oh and all that was on top of the normal housework, cooking breakfast and lunch, cleaning up the living room 500 times, and tending to the kids and all their messes! *sigh* I'm tired! :o) But thankfully Colby will be home soon and then we'll begin our evening which is always my favorite time of the day.

Tomorrow i'm making lasagna for the first time ever so i'm super excited about that, I made a huge batch of homemade spaghetti sauce last night-we of course had spaghetti for dinner-partly so I could make the lasagna tomorrow. We're having some friends over for dinner and i'm really excited because it will be a kid free evening! Their daughter will go to bed shortly after they get here and my mom will have my kids like she does every Friday night so we'll get to hang out and enjoy a grown-up evening! haha!

Next week will be so awesome! Colby is off 3 days so we're going to have so much fun doing absolutely nothing! :o) But Next Saturday Konner and Lexi are both in a friends wedding which I can't wait for. Konner's gonna wear a little suit and Lex has a really pretty dress, they're gonna be so cute! Of course i'm hoping my temperamental little drama queen cooperates with everything, 2 weeks ago she decided she wanted to wear her pj's for the wedding instead of her dress so we'll see how it all turns out. :o)

Well this whole post has been so scattered and random but that's just how my brain works most of the time. Time to go get dinner ready... :o)

All things kids

That's what my life feels like right now! :o) Day in and day out it's kids, kids, kids. When I wake up it's kids. When I go to sleep it's kids. As a mom of 3 kids under 5 that's normal I guess but it can still be a bit of a challenge. There are those days that make me want to run back to bed and hide under the blankets, but for the most part as hard as this mom thing is I do love what I do. But even the most wonderful and dedicated moms need their breaks which is why I LOVE my husband! He totally gets that I need my times of just me! The other night he got home from work and i'd had an especially hard day so he let me go by myself to the store for about an hour while he took care of the kids. He fixed dinner and got the kids mostly ready for bed so all I had to do was help tuck them in and then sit and relax. It was awesome!!!

Starting in 2 weeks i'll also be getting a couple hours to myself ever other week, we're starting a scrapbook bible study this month so i'll get to get out of the house and scrap! I'm super excited, it'll give me a chance to have to scrapbook which is totally something I need otherwise I never get to it. Believe it or not i'm still trying to finish Lexi's first year album! But it's fun because I get the chance to see how much Lexi and Logyn look alike. My father-in-law was looking at Lexi's book and thought I had put a page of Lexi next to Logyn to show how much they look alike when in fact it was just Lexi. I'm really curious to see how much they'll look alike when they're older!

Konner told me the other day that he thinks I should have another baby and make this one a boy. haha! I was actually waiting for that to come from him at some point, after all he's surrounded by girls so I figure it's only natural for him to want another boy form him and daddy to play with. But sadly...that's not going to happen since we've decided Logyn will be our last baby. Oh well, i'm sure he'll enjoy being the big brother!

Well I guess I better get back to my house work...after all a mom's work is never done!