It's party time!

Lexi's birthday is in a month, I can't believe she's going to be 3 already! We have decided to have the party here at our house which will be a bit of a challenge since our house is so small, but we'll make it work. We're going to do it kinda like a come and go so people can come when they want and don't feel like they have to stay the whole time. We'll have chips and sandwiches and of course cake and ice cream so that'll be fun. The big difference this year is that i'll be making the cake! I'm super nervous about it because i've never made a fancy cake before so i'm really hoping it turns out. She of course is having a My Little Pony birthday which is no surprise at all but she also really likes princess stuff, so I decided to make her a pony castle cake. I actually have been looking at cakes online for a while now trying to figure out what kind of cake to make since this is my first time, and I found a pony castle cake. So while it's not MY original idea i'm gonna do it anyways! :o)

We're just planning on inviting some of our friends and family so it won't be a huge thing but it's her birthday so I want it to be a fairly big deal for her so we're gonna go all out with decorating. Colby and I are planning on waiting till the kids leave on Friday and decorating the living room with tons of streamers and balloons so when she gets home from my moms on Saturday the house is all ready for her party! I'm so excited!

Oh, i'm also going to make cookie wands for everyone. I got the idea from the My Little Pony website-yes I signed up for the party planning stuff. I got a cookie sheet that has 6 star shapes on it and a place to put the stick at the bottom before I bake them. Then i'll tie ribbon around the stick and put pink or purple icing and sprinkles on them so they sparkle! :o)Can you tell i'm having fun planning this very girly party?

Ok I guess I better quit chatting and get busy cleaning. That is one good thing about having the party here, it's giving me a great excuse to get all my deep cleaning work done...because we all know that people are going to go behind my furniture and inspect the baseboards! Don't you do that at birthday parties?! :o)

My how time has flown!

Logyn is now 8 months old! I can't believe 8 months has gone by since she was born, next month she'll have been here as long as I was pregnant which is just crazy! I thought my pregnancy went by so fast but it was nothing compared to since she's been born. My crazy girl is now starting to walk already! She took her very first steps yesterday, I just can't believe she's already starting to walk! She's done everything faster than Konner and Lexi but this is way faster than both of them, they were both 13 months and 2 weeks before they took their first steps. Once she figured out she could take a step that's the first thing she'd do every time she'd stand up which is all the time. I feel so bad for Colby though because he was at work and missed it, I was actually on the phone with him when she did it so he got to hear that she's done it. But she did good and did it again for him when he got home, and for Colby's parents when we went to dinner with them. Konner and Lex are so excited that she's trying to walk, every time she stands up now they yell for me to come watch cause she's gonna walk! It's so cute. :o)

It's so hard to believe sometimes that i'm a mom of 3, i'm only 23 years old and I already have 3 kids! I've actually had a bit of a hard time the last few weeks because i've just been feeling so overwhelmed with all of it. I know this was all my choice and don't get me wrong, I love my kids and wouldn't trade them for the world but I started feeling like i'd missed out on a lot of my life by having them. Gosh, just typing that is even hard! There's so many people out there that struggle to have babies and want them so bad and here I was not even liking mine or really even wanting them around. How awful is that?! I was the worst mother in the world!

But we had a Connect service which is a night of prayer and praise-at our church on Sunday night and God ministered so powerfully to me that night. A lady on our prayer team prayed with me and prayed peace and wisdom over me without knowing anything I was dealing with and that was exactly what I needed. I've been so lost on knowing what to do with my kids, I mean they're great kids but like everyone they have their weaknesses which have just been driving me crazy! I've needed wisdom on how to address these weaknesses and still keep myself controlled at the same time. I've also needed peace because i've just been so down and really upset with so much lately, some things that shouldn't matter and some things that really should but either way worrying over them hasn't changed a thing-surprise surprise!

I've had such a different week this week and I know it was because of Sunday night! Pastor Don said at church that morning that if we would come to the service expecting something of God that we wouldn't be disappointed and God would meet us there and that's exactly what happened! Honestly this has been a crazy week, the kids have been fighting more than normal, very little has gone smoothly and honestly I had a fairly bad morning yesterday but over all i've had a peace and calm this week that I haven't had in a long time and it's been wonderful. I'm so thankful that I serve a God that knows exactly where i'm at and comes to me even though i've done nothing to deserve it.

Well I guess I better get back to all my housework, it never seems to end which I guess is a good thing. It just means we have food to eat, clothes to wear and a house to live in-looking for the positives here! ;o)

Taking a break

Well i'm supposed to be cleaning but i'm so tired of cleaning so i'm taking a break to sit and relax for a bit. So far today i've cleaned the kitchen 3 times, washed 4 loads of laundry, cleaned and organized the kitchen counters, cleaned out and organized the fridge, cleaned off my desk, scrubbed the bathtub, toilet, and bathroom sink, deep cleaned the living room, cleaned our table-which had gotten very cluttered, and...I think that's it. I still need to...fold the laundry, deep clean my room-it's a DISASTER!-vacuum the house, change and wash all our bedding and sweep and mop the kitchen and bathroom. But I think some of that will just have to wait till tomorrow, there's just not enough hours in my day. Oh and all that was on top of the normal housework, cooking breakfast and lunch, cleaning up the living room 500 times, and tending to the kids and all their messes! *sigh* I'm tired! :o) But thankfully Colby will be home soon and then we'll begin our evening which is always my favorite time of the day.

Tomorrow i'm making lasagna for the first time ever so i'm super excited about that, I made a huge batch of homemade spaghetti sauce last night-we of course had spaghetti for dinner-partly so I could make the lasagna tomorrow. We're having some friends over for dinner and i'm really excited because it will be a kid free evening! Their daughter will go to bed shortly after they get here and my mom will have my kids like she does every Friday night so we'll get to hang out and enjoy a grown-up evening! haha!

Next week will be so awesome! Colby is off 3 days so we're going to have so much fun doing absolutely nothing! :o) But Next Saturday Konner and Lexi are both in a friends wedding which I can't wait for. Konner's gonna wear a little suit and Lex has a really pretty dress, they're gonna be so cute! Of course i'm hoping my temperamental little drama queen cooperates with everything, 2 weeks ago she decided she wanted to wear her pj's for the wedding instead of her dress so we'll see how it all turns out. :o)

Well this whole post has been so scattered and random but that's just how my brain works most of the time. Time to go get dinner ready... :o)

All things kids

That's what my life feels like right now! :o) Day in and day out it's kids, kids, kids. When I wake up it's kids. When I go to sleep it's kids. As a mom of 3 kids under 5 that's normal I guess but it can still be a bit of a challenge. There are those days that make me want to run back to bed and hide under the blankets, but for the most part as hard as this mom thing is I do love what I do. But even the most wonderful and dedicated moms need their breaks which is why I LOVE my husband! He totally gets that I need my times of just me! The other night he got home from work and i'd had an especially hard day so he let me go by myself to the store for about an hour while he took care of the kids. He fixed dinner and got the kids mostly ready for bed so all I had to do was help tuck them in and then sit and relax. It was awesome!!!

Starting in 2 weeks i'll also be getting a couple hours to myself ever other week, we're starting a scrapbook bible study this month so i'll get to get out of the house and scrap! I'm super excited, it'll give me a chance to have to scrapbook which is totally something I need otherwise I never get to it. Believe it or not i'm still trying to finish Lexi's first year album! But it's fun because I get the chance to see how much Lexi and Logyn look alike. My father-in-law was looking at Lexi's book and thought I had put a page of Lexi next to Logyn to show how much they look alike when in fact it was just Lexi. I'm really curious to see how much they'll look alike when they're older!

Konner told me the other day that he thinks I should have another baby and make this one a boy. haha! I was actually waiting for that to come from him at some point, after all he's surrounded by girls so I figure it's only natural for him to want another boy form him and daddy to play with. But sadly...that's not going to happen since we've decided Logyn will be our last baby. Oh well, i'm sure he'll enjoy being the big brother!

Well I guess I better get back to my house work...after all a mom's work is never done!

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I never know what to put as the title, it's rare that I get on here and actually have something to talk about! haha! Usually it's just me being bored and siting down "talking" to myself so I end up spending more time trying to figure out what I should title this silly thing than I spend actually writing it. I know, I put WAY to much thought into something that should be so simple...

Anyways...I think this blog thing is so hard for me to do because I have so little to say. Actually there's lots of things i'd like to say but very little that i'm confidant enough to actually say. I have all kinds of opinions of things, I have all kinds of things i'd love to talk to people about but I hardly ever have the confidence to actually say those things. You wouldn't think that something as simple as sitting down and writing a journal-basically-would be so complicated and difficult but for me it is. I mean this is on the internet, anyone can read this-not that many do but plenty could and that always manages to make me second guess what I actually end up writing about.

I've always wanted to be the kind of writer that when you read it you feel like you're sitting in my living room and we're chatting while drinking a cup of fabulous coffee. I love opening a book and after the first page feeling like i've known the author for years, I don't know how people do that. I've actually always wanted to be a writer-goodness knows i've read enough books!!-but once again i've never had the confidence to actually write anything. I guess the whole confidence thing is something I should really work on.

Ok, so from now on i'm going to try to do just that, i'm going to work on being more confident in my writing. I'm going to sit down with a good cup of coffee and imagine that i'm having a girlfriend over to join me and we're having the best time chatting about nothing and everything. I'm going to write about whatever happens to be on my mind and not worry about the fact that anyone could read it, this is after all MY blog! :o)

But for now, the kids are awake, well Konner and Logyn are, so I guess I better go...but i'll be back very soon! After all, I love any excuse to enjoy a cup of coffee! ;o)

Daily craziness

It's so strange to me how the simple day to day can be so crazy around here. I remember telling Colby when we were talking about having another baby that I wanted a house full of chaos, I wanted the busy days of sports practice and dance class and all the many activities that kids get involved with. So far we haven't even reached those activities and yet we stay so busy.

Growing up I always thought my mom just came up with chores for us, I really didn't think there could actually be that much to keeping a house of 4 clean. I was wrong!!! :o) I have to say I can't wait till the kids are old enough to get a daily list of chores...does that make me a bad mom?! haha! They have their regular things they do like pick up their toys and clothes and take their dishes to the sink, things like that. But the day they can do laundry will be a good day!!! :o) There's so much to keeping a house running smoothly and i'm still learning what all it takes, we have way to many bumpy days around here.

Konner has started asking questions like crazy, since he started talking he's asked questions but now they're getting a little bit harder. He now wants to know what everything means, plus he loves to talk so if he doesn't have anything to say he'll come up with something! "Mommy, what does what mean?" "Mommy, why is the sun the sun?" "Mommy, what does because mean?" Those are the times I just have to tell him to stop talking and silence is a good thing! haha! He's such an awesome little boy though and i'm learning all the time how to mother a boy, it's SOOO different than mothering girls! In the last few months he's started not wanting to much affection from me, it's been awhile since i've been able to hug him very much but it's continuing to increase. The other day Lexi was still sleeping and Konner came and sat with me while we watched a movie, he actually let me snuggle him a little bit. Of course as soon as Lexi came in the room he had to get up, he couldn't let sister see him snuggling with mommy. I guess my little boy is growing up!

Lexi is my major drama queen! I told my sister a while back that I don't know where the kids get their dramatics from, I mean I wasn't that dramatic as a kid! Of course she reminded me that um..yes I was! haha! It's so funny to me how often the end of the world comes around here, at least that's what Lexi thinks. She's also my strong willed child, she's only 2 and already she tries to out last me when it's something she doesn't want to do. It's so funny to me that she thinks "no" will actually work! :o) I guess it's something she has to try out though, i'm just having to remind myself to train her will. Being a girl with a strong will can actually be a great thing ans long as her will gets shaped right. Thank goodness for our church, I wouldn't have a clue if it wasn't for our pastor's teaching us regularly how do train these kids!

Logyn is doing awesome, she's growing like a weed and wants to bad to be big like brother and sis. She just follows them around all the time now, of course by the time they've gone in 3 circles she's starting on her first one but she'll catch them soon enough! We're going to go up to Colby's work tomorrow and take some new pics of the kids, it's been forever since we've taken some good pictures of them and they're growing and changing so fast. I'm excited to get them done though! I'll have to post some of them as well as some of Lexi and Logyn at the same age, those girls look SO much alike it's crazy! It's a good thing we keep their pictures separate because I wouldn't be able to tell them apart otherwise!

Colby and I are still doing great, we just had our 5 year anniversary a couple weeks ago, we got to get away for the weekend without the kids which was awesome. I can't believe it's been 5 years already! It's feels like so much longer sometimes, of course a lot has happened in those 5 years! I never though when we got married that by our 5 year anniversary we'd have 3 kids, but I have to say it's been an awesome journey! I told him on our trip that i'm so anxious to see where well be in 5 years, I don't even have a clue honestly. We have some ideas of where we'd like to be but don't really know if we'll actually get there. Colby's starting to pursue his career in fashion photography a bit more which is pretty cool and kinda scary at the same time. If he does end up doing solely fashion photography we'll most likely have to move, I mean there's not a lot of opportunity for fashion work here. Of course we're not really close to that right now so I try to just let go and give all of that to God until the time comes. No need to worry about it right now...easier said than done though that's for sure.

Well it's almost time to get Colby for lunch so I better go...plus it's back to all that house work I was talking about! ;o)

Summer...

I've always hated summer, as a kid the only good thing about it was we didn't have school, now that i'm an adult even that reason is gone. I've always preferred fall and especially winter to spring or summer but yet every year those two seasons still show up. :o) I did find something to enjoy during summer though...grilling!! My dad gave us a grill this year and we have since started grilling on a regular basis. I love it because it leaves at least half of the cooking to Colby which always makes for a nice break.

I'm also getting into cooking from scratch, i've made rolls, bread, different baked goods and breakfast foods from scratch so far. I have a few websites that i'm on regularly getting new ideas and trying new things and so far I love it! I have so many more recipes I want to try out, muffins and several different breads now that i've pulled my bread maker out again. It's surprising how fun it really is to get in and be all home-makey!

Also quick update on Logyn, she is now almost 6 months old and is crawling, sitting herself up, pulling up in the crib and slowly cruising in the crib! Crazy girl, she's so ready to be big. Everyone else is doing good and about the same as always. :o) This was super short but I gotta run...it's time to swim-for the kids not me! ;o)